Never taken any related medication as I was afraid of becoming dependent on them, however this isn't to say that you might feel the same about that. I attended counselling for at least 6 months and personally found it helpful. Again, this may not be for everybody, but I personally found it a great relief to be able to talk about things I was uncomfortable discussing with most people close to me. I'll be honest with you, part of that relies on working with a counsellor that you feel you can trust and that creates a "safe space" for you. If you are based in Cheshire I could recommend a good counsellor to you via PM. Whatever you are feeling, please be assured that it is incredibly most likely not unusual and you won't have been the only person to ever experience those feelings. You aren't weird and you certainly aren't weak. I'm not 100% all of the time, but I know i've had worse :) its a terrible cliché but there is always a brighter day.