Since this whole fiasco started I have veered from leave to remain and back again, I am now in the curious position of thinking we should leave but also thinking we should stay at this point. Leaving is the correct thing to do, the EU is a neo-liberal monstrosity that has a huge democratic deficit, but the UK at this moment under this current administration is even worse.
I worry how far Johnson and his nutjob wing will go to get there dream and has they have lied time after time, obfuscated and misinformed I am finding it hard to support something they want so badly. I am not a conspiracy nut, I try to evaluate the situation and inform myself as much as possible but at the moment I am probably more confused than I was before the whole process started. I really do think we should leave, but I also really do think we should stay. Its not being helped as the positions of both camps have hardened and become more trenchant and I do genuinely fear that many of us who are not firmly entrenched in one camp or the other will get the worst of both worlds from both sides. The more Johnson and his nut jobs pull us towards extreme no deal leave, the more the FBFE nutjobs harden in their Pro-EU attitudes.
If we take into account the effects of COVID on the economy then leaving at this point with no deal is insane, the economy is already in serious trouble and leaving with no deal will exacerbate it and I fear it could lead to total collapse and the loss of even more jobs than are already forecast. I ask myself the question, can I really support leaving if it means people lose their jobs and plunge into poverty at a time when poverty is on the rise. I also ask myself if being true to my political ideology is more important than peoples livelihoods, but I also see that a way to escape the neo liberal hell hole is to leave and if we have the capacity to use state aid to save those jobs that can be lost then leaving is still the correct thing to do. Can I trust this Government to deliver on that given their appalling record since coming to power, because it has been one clusterfuck after another and we have a PM who is veering dangerously towards authoritarianism and that has negative effects on the democracy I want us all to live under.
There is also the underlying nastiness of leaving that has been promulgated by the rise and acceptance of some rather sinister far right ideology. Can I really support a position that allow the far right to have such influence on society and make our country a place in their image. Do we really want to be a country where the far right are standing on the cliffs of Dover spouting anti immigration/refugee rhetoric, because I don't want that I want immigration to be controlled not used as a tool to punish people escaping the hell holes of Syria or Iraq. I want immigration to be used to make sure it works for the country and makes it a better place for everyone, immigrants included not as means to use against people actually born here and suffering the same disgusting treatment as the Windrush generation.
To leave means being free to do what is best for this country, which as a patriotic Socialist who believes that the only way we can become a truly Socialist society is to leave the Neo-liberal club I am actually questioning whether my hopes and dreams are worth sacrificing to stem the rise of this far right nonsense that is seen now almost on a daily basis. Are we sacrificing everything this country is and has always been to satisfy a small number of fanatics? Because as I wrote earlier the nation is becoming more extreme and Johnson is desperate for a win and being the narcissistic **** he is I am convinced he will put himself and his ego before the nations needs.
This whole BREXIT debacle and it has been a debacle there is no doubt in that has led us to a point where compromise is seen as weakness and negotiation seen as conflict, this cannot help the people of the UK or the EU when politicians on both sides have lost those arts we now desperately need more than ever.
I still thinking leaving the EU is the correct thing to do, it has the weight of a Democratic mandate behind it but by fuck its been handled badly and I speak to friends of mine who live in Spain and Portugal and they tell me the locals think the UK has lost the plot, we used to be respected for sensible level headed politics and good old British diplomacy now we look like a rotten rabble who could not organise the proverbial piss up in a brewery, we are a laughing stock and because of our uncompromising stance we are treated as a laughing stock. Laughing stock Britain is not the epitaph I want from leaving the EU, but that is how we will be portrayed and that saddens me, that though is not anybody who voted for Brexit's fault, its the fault of the sheer incompetence of our politicians and the underhand machinations of a select few hard line nutters who live in a fantasy world of village green cricket, tea and scones at Mrs Miggins pie shop and the Royal Navy ruling the high seas.
If there was another referendum today I would vote leave because its the only way Socialism can be realised, but as we are under the governance of the worst administration in UK history letting them conduct this process is borderline insane.
