I didn't go yesterday but it was the first cup final we have been in that I felt we weren't going to win. I honestly didn't have confidence in us at all. Something about the Southampton game and the way we played it sucked the confidence out of me. It's been one of those seasons where I have felt that anything that can go wrong will go wrong, and that's how it played out. Ever since Haaland returned from injury I feared we would disruption the flow of a team that finally started to play with consistency, in order to fit him in. Two important games and zero goals, alongside not having the confidence to take a penalty, says it all for me.
I don't begrudge Palace the cup. I know a place fan who takes his kids home and away and this will mean everything to him. Just like how I felt in 2011. It doesn't feel as bad as Wigan or last year. I do think that the treble and four in a row has cost us more than we realise in a number of ways with this squad. It desperately needs a couple of seasons to rebuild. It feels like they have lost their hunger.