I couldn't sleep, my sleep pattern is irregular from years of shift work on the ships and since I retired. Bored I was watching YouTube videos and this one on Ricky popped up, from four years ago, which I've never seen before. A good watch but heartbreaking knowing what's happened, especially him talking about his mental health.
One thing that struck me is how when he was talking about his life, what he had, what he'd achieved etcetera it was like he was trying to convince himself he was happy and grateful but deep down it hadn't really made him happy and content, if that makes sense? Watching it now I just think he felt empty, like he'd achieved everything he could in life and that was now it sadly. Some people can relax, enjoy what they've earned and achieved and adjust to a different life. Sadly in Ricky's case he couldn't.
One thing that struck me is how when he was talking about his life, what he had, what he'd achieved etcetera it was like he was trying to convince himself he was happy and grateful but deep down it hadn't really made him happy and content, if that makes sense? Watching it now I just think he felt empty, like he'd achieved everything he could in life and that was now it sadly. Some people can relax, enjoy what they've earned and achieved and adjust to a different life. Sadly in Ricky's case he couldn't.