Ducado said:
It really is one of the hardest things to do in life, and gets harder the longer you smoke, it's not just the nicotine that is addictive it's all the things that go along with smoking, with me the smoking ban was great because it allowed me to be on my own with my thoughts releasing stress with the exhaled smoke, I never smoked in the house and loved wandering around the garden smoking (I have a big garden)
But it is so worth the effort, but you have to find other things to give you what the addiction gave you, with me it was serious life changes losing weight going to the gym etc.
Hope this all makes sense
Interesting to hear the thoughts of other ex smokers.
I had similar reasons for not wanting to give up. I thought I enjoyed being outside/being alone to relax/alone to think about thing etc. Looking back, it did nothing but impede all the things I thought it was helping with.
When I used to wake up in the morning I'd have a cigarette, and that first one in the morning always gives you a bit of a light headed feeling, and a bit of a rush. Those feelings are reactions to poison, and when I stopped and actually thought about it, not enjoyable in the slightest. When I first realised this I was very confused as for the past 5 years, that's what I thought I'd liked most about smoking. I carried on smoking for about 5 months after that realization and it was always the same.
As for relaxation, it doesn't do that at all. While you might be releaved of stress and tension while you're actually having a cigarette, the second it's finished, nicotine starts leaving your body and makes you very unrelaxed. It's the cigarette that puts the stress and tension there in the first place. I used to have to pause films for a quick one, run out of the pub at football half time, smoke 2/3 in quick succession before long journeys. Nowadays, with all the bans etc, having a day out can become very awkward because as a smoker I was mapping out where and when I could smoke so I wouldn't have to go without.
Finally, I used to enjoy being on my own for ten minutes, like a little break from whatever else I was doing. I was attributing that feeling of "break" to the cigarette when in actual fact, it was nothing to do with the cigarette at all. I still sit outside and read the paper with a coffee, and when I go out for a walk etc, I can walk for longer and enjoy the surrounding far more now I'm not thinking about how much tobacco I have left to keep me going until I find a shop.
Once I'd realised these things (and more) quitting became very easy indeed, because I didn't think I wanted one. My choices became, not smoke and no change to how I'm feeling now, or smoke, and feel dry mouthed/smell/become unrelaxed and so on.
Did this sort of thing happen to you Ducado?