It's projecting really. I'm prone to it too. To bleat on and on about anything isn't a charming quality though. It makes you seem ill, and what's attractive about someone who is sick and constantly letting you know? I admire those secure people who either have no internal confusion or just bottle it up nice and tight. Closed books, conservative.
It'd be nice to be that in control of yourself. On a basic level though, we aren't in control ever. This can't be just me. When you get countless thoughts and mental images a day that you didn't want to think of. They just pop in and out of consciousness without so much as a 'hello' or 'do you mind If i just...'
Makes you feel helpless. As quick as you tell one to fuck off another is on it's way.
It might be low strength of character, lack of understanding. Syphilis :) who knows. Quite selfish really, but that's what we know the best, our own selves, even if we don't even know that very well.
It's all circular too, you go through good times and bad but it just all comes round again and again. The moods, and the constantly changing of mind and what you think is right or good. I don't wanna sound tortured, or over-dramatic, it just is what it is. I imagine we all or most of us get this. Definitely not easy this living lark.
Some people want pity I am sure, they might need/deserve it. Others just want to write it down and get it off the chest and there is something easing about writing it where somebody might read it, rather than on a piece of paper with a pencil in the kitchen and then screwing it up and throwing it away and then wishing you hadn't.