We all have these thoughts mate. The simple fact is, we can’t be everywhere all the time. Your mum sounded like an amazing, loving woman. She loved you and the last thing she would want would be for you to blame yourself in any way. A fair few of us here have lost our parents. We feel your pain and also guilt. But, it is the last thing any of our old dears or dads would want. What I tell myself is, they made me. As long as I am alive, so are they. When I look at my siblings, my sons, my grandchildren, I see and hear them. Our hearts go out to you. Sometimes there is simply nothing we could have done, telling ourselves there was, is something we do, but it isn’t true. I will raise a good malt to her memory tonight. You look after yourself.
