Hello lovelies
Thank for all the messages and support
I woke up on the 25th jan and had a really big abcess in my mouth and huge swelling in my cheek and not able to open my mouth, i went to A&E, went straight in and the dr said you need iv antibiotics right now
He asked do you have any allergies , i dont so he went with penicillin , as he was putting it in my arm i said i feel weird and next thing i found myself in intensive care , i had had an an anaphyalactic (sp) shock and a cardiac arrest , i also had septic shock from my mouth infection, the end stage of sepsis , next step death
I was in real trouble and spent two or three days in intensive care and the rest of the week on high dependancy , which was next door , same staff which was nice
Turns out recovery from cpr is hard , it is so very painful , i dont know how i survived the cardiac arrest and septic shock, i had no recordable bp and i had a adrenaline drip for several days till i could sustain my pressure unaided along with high dose steroids and antibiotics and other things
I have flashbacks about many hands all over me putting in a load of drips and a catheter and drip in my neck down to my heart which is the quickest route for drugs and fluids , it is stiched in and i had multiple meds and fluids for the week
I had three heart scans and given the all clear, sepsis likes to go to the heart and stick up the valves , after concerns about my kidneys they are ok so long as i drink plenty
I had four different iv antibiotics all week and the toxicologist put together a regime i had to take at home , the pharmacist came and talked me through it as it was complicated and my brain wasnt working to well at that point
I am in awe of the itu and hdu staff, they do 12 hour shifts and your nurse never leaves your side, i felt very safe, also the drs and everyone in other depts that clear scanners so i could go straight in, the photo lady who took photos of my mouth for the face drs to see , the lady who brought the meals and fresh water and as i couldnt eat much she got me lots of milk and banana and cold custard , lush
I feel shattered and weak, told this is a long recovery, saw my dr yesterday and i already have a chest infection, he said you will pick up everything and until your immune system can fight infections it will mean more antibiotics, cant let any infection take hold
The first thing i did was get a medic alert bracelet with allergic to penicillin, i have had lots of tablets , quite recently and no problem with it but it is a no no now
The drs said i could go to a ward for a few days but there was no beds and i really didnt feel good at bed blocking hdu so we discussed me going home with four weeks support at home , eventually the drs said ok. The red cross took me home , settled me in and gave me milk and bread , they also provided carers , i stopped that after a couple of days as i can look after myself and i had had enough of people fussing. They call me every few days and they will send whatever help i need if i change my mind
My job now is to take the meds , rest and drink loads of water and cuddle merlin a lot , he had a difficult week without me , my friend went in every day to feed him and he spat at her every day , rude !
I wont be posting again for a while. I am too tired, i am not interested in football , it seems very unimportant right now, i am struggling mentally with being dead for four or five mins and how close i was to staying dead , it is a very emotional and confusing time right now
Thanks again , much love XXX
