Suddenly feeling the weight of all this.
How long Pep's been here, how much has changed in my life since he came in, how much is shifting around me now as I really start entering my 30s, and how Pep going will add to that.
I was completely relaxed about turning 30 a couple of years ago but the rate of change in my life over the last 18 months has been really eye-opening for me - my adolescence is definitely disappearing from the rearview mirror.
I've recently got married, learned to drive, and bought a house. All the big things my life was building towards are now complete. Now it's just me, my wife, and my job, and that'll sort of be it. No more obligatory targets or milestones.
But beyond that, my wife lost her dad, my parents have slowly started losing their friends, my friends have slowly started losing their parents, some of my other friends have started having kids, I'm an uncle now to my sister-in-law's daughter.
In my personal life I've decided to call time on the music act I've been performing as since I was 19, my wife and I are planning on leaving Stockport behind in the next 12 months in order to move to somewhere else in Greater Manchester, and I recently left a job I'd been working in for the last 3-4 years.
And now Pep's going. I'd just turned 22 when we hired him. I was about to start my masters degree at Salford. I was living in a flat in Manchester with my parents (and my girlfriend at the time, who basically moved in with us because her living situation at home was tough). Thinking about what's happened since then - all the good and all the bad - is making me well up.
Over the last 12 months the City team that defined my entire 20s will have basically completely gone. I am excited and nervous about what comes next but I'm feeling awfully melancholic and reflective right now. So much feels like it's changing around me and yeah, Pep going is another big change. A long-standing fixture that's just not gonna be there anymore, all while several other eras of my adolescence and 20s come to definitive ends as lots of new eras for my 30s come into view.
Don't think I'm going to make it to the end of Sunday.