Christ...not sure if it's my current emotional state but this thread has me welling up.
We got a lab over 4 years ago for my daughter (autistic). I couldn't go near dogs. Allergic and the complete antithesis of a dog lover. Missed the first months as a puppy I was so averse to the idea (I'm a bit of neat freak too...well...was).
Wouldn't have batted an eye lid if she went missing.
Roll on four odd years and she's on the of the best things that ever came into my lift (kids aside).
I no longer with the kids but take her out for a long evening walk (often two hours)....at least I did until Covid hit me.
She climbed into my soul and unravelled all my idiosyncrasies and rebuilt me as a better, more open person.
The amount of 'human friends' I've made through walking her is incredible.
She's not particularly tactile and sees cuddling as alien but she's softened as she's matured. I often give her the biggest hugs.
She has dysplasia in all her limbs (noted before she was one) and was limping for months. We were told she'd have to be put to sleep within a few months (when she was one) but with the help of a vet we managed her recovery and since then (no operations btw) she's been fine.
I absolutely dread the day her time comes to depart her mortal, canine coil....
Would love my own actually, but I'm not allowed animals in this flat.
Plan is to buy next year and get my own mutt (but how would one replace the family lab...)
Last year would've been a lot more manageable with a dog as company.
Wish you all the best with this mate.