cool. and that's your experience - but, for me, as the mind quiets it is 'obvious' that their is something beyond this. Have you tried this also - or you just relying in other people'sAh but proof denies faith according to The Hitch-Hikers Guide to the Galaxy. The whole point about religion is that faith is what matters; proof is for the real world.
Religion has often been taught using a mixture of indoctrination and threats. Those methods wouldn't be needed if it wasn't a con.
theories of 'what is?'