Depression is a chemical imbalance in your brain brought about by life. The meds help but it may take you a while to find the right ones. Some work some don't. Fluoxetine sent me psychotic. Take the meds see how it goes keep talking to your GP. Once your genuinely feel better then you can start your recovery by addressing the issues that caused your illness. Biggest problem is the stigma attached to depression. 1 in 4 will face depression tomsome degree in their lives. Owning it is a great help. Remember you can't change the past, you don't know the future you can only live in the now. Hope you get there pal.