Every year as we're approaching the season's end, I start to feel increasing frustration and sadness, knowing that things are coming to an end. It isn't a new thing, even when we were shit 25 years ago it was always a privilege and pleasure just to be there, among kindred spirits. I had a similar thing near the end of most games, as the clock ticks round to 90 minutes - hoping we're going to get another goal - or not concede another - just not wanting it to end.
Yesterday, having a pint in Mary D's after the game, it felt awful, knowing that this was the last home game - even though we'd had all the presentation hullabaloo.
I find that it's accentuated these days, when we're playing brilliant football. I don't want it to end, but know that it soon will.
I can't wait for the games to come round, but as they are running out, there's an increasing emptyness approaching.
I think it's definitely worse with the ageing process - not far off 60 seasons now. This feeling's always been there.
I've got family but City are just as big a part of it - my life. I feel lost when it stops, but it seems worse as the season's end approaches.
I mentioned it to a mate yesterday who's older than me and he said he feels the same.
Do you guys feel similar?