Broken

[BLUEYESTU]

Don’t give up Blue! There’s people on here who have been in the hole you are in. Just reach out and ask for help ok? Drop me a pm any time you need to talk and I’ll reply.

 

[Berts Neck]

Reach out to someone my friend..anyone...me..just someone..bless you KK

 

[Ric]

Relieved to say that I’ve just had a message from Emma. She’s still going through a very difficult time obviously, but the most important thing is that she’s ok for now. She’s seen the thread on here and appreciates the support. She said she’s sorry for worrying people, but will try to reply to PMs when she feels up to it.

 

[HolisticJim]

Hurts my heart to know you are struggling like that. Pick up the phone and don't suffer in silence.
There are ppl out there who really can help.

 

[Mad Eyed Screamer]

Relieved to say that I’ve just had a message from Emma. She’s still going through a very difficult time obviously, but the most important thing is that she’s ok for now. She’s seen the thread on here and appreciates the support. She said she’s sorry for worrying people, but will try to reply to PMs when she feels up to it.

Thanks Ric
That is a relief to know she has reached out to you and is "ok".

 

[Stephen Ireland's pants]

my mum died too, some years back now.

Absolutely devastated to this day, miss her terribly. She was taken too young and bloody horribly as well. No dignity at all. This was the one woman in my life that would die for me. She Brought myself and my sister up and did a fukin good job of it an’all. An absolute hero of mine. And she was my mum.

For years I felt like I’d never stop crying about it and still I get flashbacks of her lay dead with all sorts going on and it still hurts like hell.

I look at my kids and see the pain in their eyes from watching me hurt so much and their own pain of missing their nana the best nana ever to them. It twists my heart to know that they miss her and she’s Never coming back. She’ll never be there for them at all the landmark occasions and milestones. She’ll always be missing.

But I love my mum. More than anything. And I came to realise that the more I’d loved her the more I’d feel the pain of losing her. And then realised that’s not a bad thing. My pain was a direct result of the love I had for her. That made me feel happy. Knowing I loved her unconditionally for so long and my pain confirmed that. It made me smile, it still does.

Out of that thinking I thought there is only one way I can show her how much I love and miss her, and that was to make her proud. Make her proud of me, my kids and my life. Carry on her legacy, Show her that I’ll take her with me on my journey and I’ll try my best to make it the best journey possible. It also helped me to focus myself again. Get rid of some things and people I realised I didn’t need.

Mate, Your mum is,was, will be the best person ever in your life.

You’ve just got to try to be her daughter And carry her candle with you. After all her legacy is you! You carry on? then so does she!

Good luck sister cry whenever you fukin feel like it! And be proud!

Beautiful post. Respect blue

 

[Worzel Gummidge#9]

my mum died too, some years back now.

Absolutely devastated to this day, miss her terribly. She was taken too young and bloody horribly as well. No dignity at all. This was the one woman in my life that would die for me. She Brought myself and my sister up and did a fukin good job of it an’all. An absolute hero of mine. And she was my mum.

For years I felt like I’d never stop crying about it and still I get flashbacks of her lay dead with all sorts going on and it still hurts like hell.

I look at my kids and see the pain in their eyes from watching me hurt so much and their own pain of missing their nana the best nana ever to them. It twists my heart to know that they miss her and she’s Never coming back. She’ll never be there for them at all the landmark occasions and milestones. She’ll always be missing.

But I love my mum. More than anything. And I came to realise that the more I’d loved her the more I’d feel the pain of losing her. And then realised that’s not a bad thing. My pain was a direct result of the love I had for her. That made me feel happy. Knowing I loved her unconditionally for so long and my pain confirmed that. It made me smile, it still does.

Out of that thinking I thought there is only one way I can show her how much I love and miss her, and that was to make her proud. Make her proud of me, my kids and my life. Carry on her legacy, Show her that I’ll take her with me on my journey and I’ll try my best to make it the best journey possible. It also helped me to focus myself again. Get rid of some things and people I realised I didn’t need.

Mate, Your mum is,was, will be the best person ever in your life.

You’ve just got to try to be her daughter And carry her candle with you. After all her legacy is you! You carry on? then so does she!

Good luck sister cry whenever you fukin feel like it! And be proud!

Heart warming post. Reading that brought me a tear but also a smile.

It may of been hard for you to write that or the total opposite but Thank You either way, I can totally relate to it.

To the original poster, My deepest condolences and sorry for your loss. Grief is a dark time but it will get easier, do you think the person you have lost would want to see you in such a bad place, of course not, that itself is motivation to do them proud, Unfortunately we all have to go through these times but you don’t have to go through it alone, if EVER you need to just speak to someone drop a message, I don’t know you personally but I’m already routing for you. Keep your chin up. X

 

[rickmcfc]

Relieved to say that I’ve just had a message from Emma. She’s still going through a very difficult time obviously, but the most important thing is that she’s ok for now. She’s seen the thread on here and appreciates the support. She said she’s sorry for worrying people, but will try to reply to PMs when she feels up to it.

Thanks for the update Ric. Glad she is ok.

 

[Ashleymcduff]

First thing I checked when I woke up, glad for the update @Ric

Emma you are not alone and we are all here for you , feel free to drop a Dm to any of the people who have offered, me included x

 

[Nethermoor]

Just want to divert slightly and say that this forum is amazing for helping people In distress. Well done everyone who has responded or messaged the couple of people recently who have been going through hell. That could be two lives saved because of this forum.

I hope you get the help you need Emma. I'm sorry for your loss, I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through