General / Mental Health Support Thread

[AliBobbyJ]

my severe depression was stopping me from using the tools that I want to use to change my situation

P.S. not including a chainsaw ..

 

[PinkFinal]

P.S. not including a chainsaw ..

LOL

 

[Ho Chi Man City]

It's going to be face to face counselling which will hopefully give me the strength to leave the house during the day.

Every day is extremely tough. Due to my weight gain, on Monday I began taking half my usual dose of Mirtazapine. Not a good idea. The difference is very noticeable. I guess the only way to lose weight is to cut out chocolate, biscuits, yogurt drinks, unhealthy breakfast cereals and crisps - all of which I ate quite regularly.

Overall I'm just f*****g angry that I've told them about the chainsaw thoughts and it's made no difference whatsoever to their attitude towards me.
I could hardly be feeling more tormented if they were actively trying to prevent me from getting relief from this never ending torture.
I am now considering actually buying the chainsaw. I've certainly been looking at them online. I'm not saying I'm going to use it.

This is a farcical situation. Or it would be if it wasn't so very serious.

It’s tough, I’ve experienced it, I’m a normal fella but dark moments are never far away. I suffer from extreme anxiety and panic attacks at times but I’ve got a great wife and friends who understand completely what I’m going through.

Honestly, I’ve been blessed with a great life but I know where you’re coming from, hope you can conquer your demons, best of luck.

 

[Bettys Bell]

They've told me that I should focus on tackling my isolation and I think that's right.
I don't really give a shit if they deny me ECT.
It's no guarantee of anything and it does not do anything about my fundamental problem.
I asked for it only because I felt that my severe depression was stopping me from using the tools that I want to use to change my situation
The apathy about going to the gym and to the daily social at the mental health centre.
I was also scared that the depression was slowly descending into psychotic depression which severe depression can do.
I've still not been to the social. I'm skeptical about how much that can help me but it's better to try before dismissing. They have a music club and although I've never sung I have a strong feeling that singing could be a great way to tackle my immense pain.

I think at heart I'd sooner just sit at home and not bother with life apart from the occasional gig but this is not possible as it is very damaging psychologically. That's why I've been out picking litter and will continue to do that as obviously the litter picked up is swiftly replaced by more.
(I've seen bloody rats on the pavement obviously attracted by the litter that's another reason I'm doing it)

Who knows what the future brings
I just feel apathy mainly that's a problem that comes with age I think

Hi. Pink the music club sounds a good idea you sound like you’re really into music . It’s good to hear you mentioning the future whatever it brings . No one can say you’re not trying and you should be proud of that . Take care .

 

[Kirkstall Blue]

Was picking litter for almost three hours last night walking from Denton to Ashton picking up everything I saw.
Friday night lol.
Felt relatively OK afterwards but of course the aggressive demons are back again today so I'll need to go out again , luckily it's sunny.

My life is fundamentally empty & pointless, and excrutiatingly painful and my exit would only seriously impact one person, my brother.

I've got an appointment with a "senior mental health practitioner' on Monday morning.

They've told me that I should focus on tackling my isolation and I think that's right.
I don't really give a shit if they deny me ECT.
It's no guarantee of anything and it does not do anything about my fundamental problem.
I asked for it only because I felt that my severe depression was stopping me from using the tools that I want to use to change my situation
The apathy about going to the gym and to the daily social at the mental health centre.
I was also scared that the depression was slowly descending into psychotic depression which severe depression can do.
I've still not been to the social. I'm skeptical about how much that can help me but it's better to try before dismissing. They have a music club and although I've never sung I have a strong feeling that singing could be a great way to tackle my immense pain.

I think at heart I'd sooner just sit at home and not bother with life apart from the occasional gig but this is not possible as it is very damaging psychologically. That's why I've been out picking litter and will continue to do that as obviously the litter picked up is swiftly replaced by more.
(I've seen bloody rats on the pavement obviously attracted by the litter that's another reason I'm doing it)

Who knows what the future brings
I just feel apathy mainly that's a problem that comes with age I think

Push yourself to try the social you know you love music, singing, isolation is a modern phenomenon and people become lonely with no family or friends, no one to share your life with.

It makes a big difference if you can share all those little things with other people. If it’s not your thing then at least you tried. :) A pet might be a good idea a dog in particular they give unconditional love and would love to go long walks with you.

 

[PinkFinal]

Push yourself to try the social you know you love music, singing, isolation is a modern phenomenon and people become lonely with no family or friends, no one to share your life with.

It makes a big difference if you can share all those little things with other people. If it’s not your thing then at least you tried. :) A pet might be a good idea a dog in particular they give unconditional love and would love to go long walks with you.

I had a little kitty, she was fond of going into neighbours houses unfortunately she got bit once by a dog in a vulnerable area and that was the end

 

[Kirkstall Blue]

Ahh! That’s sad it’s emotional when that sort of thing happens, would you think of getting another one or a little dog ?

 

[PinkFinal]

Ahh! That’s sad it’s emotional when that sort of thing happens, would you think of getting another one or a little dog ?

I've never liked dogs and losing my cat was so painful I can't get another.

 

[SWP's back]

I've never liked dogs and losing my cat was so painful I can't get another.

Give it time bud. When my Newfoundland died three years ago at the age of 12 (he’s literally the reason why I’m here and able to post but that’s another story), I would have said I could never have another dog but now I’d love another Newfie if I could find one in Asia.

Animals give us a reason to exist when we sometimes can’t think of other reasons.

Also note that your situation now is not your situation always.

 

[PinkFinal]

Struggling very badly today
Don't want to get out of bed
Don't want to go outside even though it's sunny
Cancelled counselling session

I can't face a packed A&E
Perhaps I'll go later
So so sick of this

 

[AliBobbyJ]

Struggling very badly today
Don't want to get out of bed
Don't want to go outside even though it's sunny
Cancelled counselling session

I can't face a packed A&E
Perhaps I'll go later
So so sick of this

maybe remind yourself of your own post #1936.

 

[kaz7]

Struggling very badly today
Don't want to get out of bed
Don't want to go outside even though it's sunny
Cancelled counselling session

I can't face a packed A&E
Perhaps I'll go later
So so sick of this

Why have you cancelled the counselling?
I have just completed six weeks of cbt and he really helped me to look at the hard times and i defo can cope better, sounds like you have turned down-a lot of the help offered? It is time to accept it, please do it lovely x

 

[PinkFinal]

Why have you cancelled the counselling?
I have just completed six weeks of cbt and he really helped me to look at the hard times and i defo can cope better, sounds like you have turned down-a lot of the help offered? It is time to accept it, please do it lovely x

I just couldn't face going outside. I don't know why, I managed it on Monday - to see another mental health professional.
I've really felt like ending it today. It's just dragging on and on and it's agony. If I've told them about buying rope and thinking about chainsaws I don't really know what more they need to know to understand the severity of my situation. This ain't being solved by counselling.

 

[Kirkstall Blue]

I just couldn't face going outside. I don't know why, I managed it on Monday - to see another mental health professional.
I've really felt like ending it today. It's just dragging on and on and it's agony. If I've told them about buying rope and thinking about chainsaws I don't really know what more they need to know to understand the severity of my situation. This ain't being solved by counselling.

Please go to AE tonight it will be quiet Wednesday night and if it’s so bad you can’t get out of bed call the ambulance, the ambulance men are very kind they will help because you deserve treatment as much as all the other folk. :)

“The City Burnley game is on its half time” 1-0 Haaland.

 

[Bettys Bell]

Struggling very badly today
Don't want to get out of bed
Don't want to go outside even though it's sunny
Cancelled counselling session

I can't face a packed A&E
Perhaps I'll go later
So so sick of this

Sorry to hear you’re struggling today . Even though you don’t want to maybe a visit to A&E is needed . It is an emergency .

 

[PinkFinal]

I can't lie I'm in a very very serious jam
I may have to hang around a bridge tonight , or a railway station, see if anyone notices my distress.
I could just ring an ambulance but what would that accomplish? I have the second rope I purchased here which I've had for about 9 days - that could be the pretext for ringing 999

I don't like being alive.
It has become an agonising burden.

Monday and yesterday I thought I was turning a corner but I'm back in purgatory today. For sure.


I've got the match on trying to concentrate on that for now

 

[Bettys Bell]

@ Pink Final have you tried the Samaritans ? I think you really need to speak someone asap please don’t go near any bridges or train stations.

 

[PinkFinal]

@ Pink Final have you tried the Samaritans ? I think you really need to speak someone asap please don’t go near any bridges or train stations.

I'll probably ring 111 (NHS)

 

[Kirkstall Blue]

I'll probably ring 111 (NHS)

Ringing 111 is an alternative see what they advise, PF I know what you mean about talking therapies so much of the NHS these days is about talking through your symptoms and how you can help your self. Oh and handing out a leaflet.
That’s okay in itself but it’s not helping you, :) you know what’s best so ring 111 and tell them what you are going through tonight, we will still be here.

 

[JRockBlues]

I can't lie I'm in a very very serious jam
I may have to hang around a bridge tonight , or a railway station, see if anyone notices my distress.
I could just ring an ambulance but what would that accomplish? I have the second rope I purchased here which I've had for about 9 days - that could be the pretext for ringing 999

I don't like being alive.
It has become an agonising burden.

Monday and yesterday I thought I was turning a corner but I'm back in purgatory today. For sure.


I've got the match on trying to concentrate on that for now

@PinkFinal If you haven't already done so then please ring somebody and tell them exactly what you wrote in this post. I know you've said before that when you do speak to people that you can come across as quite calm but this is anything but. Ring them!