Today I found out that my brother and best mate passed away . He wasn’t just an alcoholic but also had gambling and drug problems .
He left home at 16 to join the racing stables a job which he loved and was successful in but with it came many pitfalls . Being his big brother I always tried to look out for him but as the years passed I could see where he was heading .
He lived in Sussex so only ever saw him for a few games or a day at the races but I could see all wasn’t good . I tried to talk about his problems but was always told don’t bother me I’m ok . From having a great job to nothing, the drink and drugs finally took over and what ever we tried to do as a family didn’t work and god knows how we tried . Near the end the abuse and violence got to much , my wife and family nobody was safe . I’m sat here now thinking could I have changed things , I don’t know probably not . I’ve lost a few pals through alcohol and now my brother .
RIP Jonny Blue