TCIB said:
I have a little story i dunno if i should post here or not, basically it is an ex from 14 years ago. Seen her on fb and i'll be honest i nearly fell to my knees, you know that feeling you get maybe 10 times in your life if your lucky?, that one.
I was a useless 18yo then and soon lost interest and went off. I still feel bad for it to this day, not for me, for just leaving her.
She did not deserve it and i dunno what the fuck i was thinking, i really don't.
So yeah she accepted my genuine apology and added me, saw her face and nearly lost the fucking plot people.
I would crawl over a thousand yards of fire just to see her face to face and say hello and see her smile. I know that is soppy as shit but seeing as i am a generally emotionally cold person i thought it may give you a laugh to see me on my fucking knees haha.
We always did click but as i say i was a stupid fool of a lad. But we still click. Thing is she just started dating a lad before seeing me again.
I will be honest, i would step over his fucking corpse if i have to. I never look at other blokes women, i would not like it. However i am really struggling here to keep the convo civil. The chat is already getting close "i want to like your photo, you look so handsome still" but she can't cause new fella and so on like that. It would look a bit dodgy her adding me and immediately liking all my face pics.
She wants to meet for a "coffee" so if you see some blue down ashton with a suspiciously large grin come say hi hehe.
I may even have totally misinterpreted the chat but i would bet every single thing i own i have not, as i say i know her well and we just clicked straight off the bat.
So i know what i am gonna do, i am just delaying the inevitable and i can't help myself.
I should add this is not some passing fancy, i am totally done. I would stick a ring on her finger in a fucking flash, not even a question.
This is the only warped justification i can give myself for what i think is gonna happen and i feel for the fella i do but fuck it i want her badly.
I know some will think i am a twat for this and maybe i am but if you know the feeling then you know you just can't help it.
She has only just met the bloke to.
You got any stories of rekindled romance ? and am i **** for this ?.
It won't change my mind even if everyone wants me burned at the stake :-D
Mate, fucking hell, i am in a very similar circumstance, with the girl who i have probably got on best with, out of every woman i have ever met. I actually have never been with anyone else who i could just be with, be it just sitting in silence, telling each other things that we hadnt told a soul and for me a biggy actually not going out of my mind and wanting to kill them, i get to a point with some of my dearest family and friends that i have to get away or i will kill them or at least say something bad, but not her. We lived together, besties and flat mates only, did everything together. Things got messy between us when sex got involved, we got together, then didnt, then did, then we had a huge row over stupid things, things were said that couldnt be unsaid and stubbornness (mainly hers as I am a forgiving type) got in the way. We have many mutual friends, her best mate and my best mate are married for example, but for 10 years we did a very good job of avoiding each other. At her best mate's dad funeral we bumped into each other and we had a good chat, felt like old times and a couple of month later i found her number randomly when clearing through some old papers. So i took a punt it was the same one and it was. We've been texting each other ever since and kept promising to meet up (she has just come out of a messy relationship and her ex is a bit unhinged). Well on Friday we met up and things have stepped up, they are looking like stepping up again, and as i said to an illustrious member of this board on Sunday night, I'm now at the point of either stepping off or jumping in with both feet. I'm in a strange place, a real cross roads in my life, I want to be with her and I am 95% certain she wants to be with me, but I cant do a half measure and just see how it goes (I really wish i could) there are too many external factors getting in the way, to use a gambling parlance - its either all in or fold. What I can tell you is history isnt one of the things that will influence my next step. Everything must be assessed in the here and now, the past is just that, the past, no point going over it, especially as it doesnt effect the here and now, how you feel now is what matters.
She wouldnt be meeting you for coffee without a spark, she will be thinking something similar to you, what you have to do is say forget the past, lets deal with now, if she cant, walk away, there is no point. As its a new relationship she's in, dont dawdle get in there my son, fuck the other bloke, he's not your mate or anything, there is no reason why not to. Alls fair in love and war and all that.
To steal a quote from one of our favourite shows - Whats dead may never die...
If you are in need of anymore cliches just let me know, oh and yes you are a ****, but thats another matter entirely. GET IN THERE MY SON.