Honestly, I feel great, like an enormous weight has been lifted. I’ve really been struggling on at this job for about two years, I used to think quitting was giving up - I’m quite stubborn - but I’ve come to accept that occasionally life will deal you a situation where you are set up to fail through no fault of your own.
Time will tell but I have to be optimistic that I’ll look back in a year or two and think it’s the best decision I could have made. I’m a great believer that nothing that is really worth doing is ever easy - sometimes you have to struggle. So far I’ve gotten lucky in life, I have a great family and support network, a wife who believes in me more than I do (no I’m not posting pics). We’ve got a bit of savings, it helps that my wife is a doctor so earns well. We can afford to take the odd measured risk.
A couple of points based on what people have been discussing. Firstly, my company is a smaller specialist consultancy but it is owned by one of the big ones. The CEO reports into them. I’ll happily provide feedback but I’d like to find a way to ensure it goes to them. The unofficial whispering into people’s ears happens a lot, I don’t trust talking to any of our ExCo because either via official or unofficial routes I reckon it will find its way to him and I might end up with a horses head in my bed.
The whole thing about working ridiculously long hours is par for the course in consultancies. Back in 2020 I was working on one project with a Californian firm and another in Singapore simultaneously, so I was up at 5am to speak to teams in Singapore and I would stay online until 11pm to have a call with somebody in LA. These “sprints” don’t always last that long, a few weeks at a time, but when they hit you they are brutal. Yes, it pays very well, but there’s a certain amount of selling your soul to the devil involved. We had to change our timesheet systems recently because they only went up to 12 hours per day and people were regularly exceeding that.
Finally, a bit of good news to end on. I sent a few enquiries out over the weekend and applied for a few roles (honestly slightly out of anger with the message I received). I have an initial interview on Thursday for a role in a different industry but it is one I’ve worked with a lot so understand well. Very early days but will see how that goes. Gives me a lot of confidence I can find something if people are responding that quickly.