Some thoughts at the end of a distressing week. Prayers go out to the innocent, especially the civilians among them, in the war zone.
1. Been one of the strangest weeks I've ever had in Russia, which is really saying something. Life under this Russian government is basically a bit like living in an abusive relationship. Over time, you've seen any delusions shattered that you might have harboured about them having a moral compass that would prevent them from doing stuff that's truly evil. But you just kind desperately hope that some kind of rationality or pragmatism might hold them back from ultimately inflicting terrible damage not only on you but also potentially on themselves. Even when you basically expect it, nonetheless it comes as a sickening shock when they do cross the line.
2. But the above analogy only works if the perpetrator is someone of such hideous evil that they're doing much worse outside the relationship. While you're entitled, I think, to a degree of self-pity, you also have to acknowledge, feel for and hopefully assist those victims in their terrible and unwarranted suffering, which by any sensible measure is far, far worse than yours.
3. What seems a lifetime ago now yet was only a few days, though before the invasion per se began, I noted that P***n is often hailed as some kind of strategic genius, even by some commentators in the west who revile his views and actions. I claimed he was nothing of the sort, citing as just one example the dismal (from his perspective) fizzling out of the 2014 eastern Ukrainian rebellion fomented by the Russians. He hoped to seize five or six provinces for his "separatists", but ended up with less than half the territory in two of them. He completely overestimated then the willingness of Russian-speakers in the east to back the adventure. Now he's hopelessly underestimated the willingness and ability of the Ukrainian army and the people to fight his complacent forces.
4. While I have enormous admiration for the fight put up by the Ukrainians, in other ways it makes me fearful. I don't want them to surrender in the least, but I also dread what might happen. P***n will do anything to avoid losing this war and needs a victory in the short term. He won't care how much of a bloodbath he creates in doing so. That makes me sick. In the long term, I've no idea how he thinks he can successfully bring to heel a country where his invading force is as unwelcome as it is here.
5. There was a particularly nauseating piece of propaganda on the news on Russian state TV last night, showing clips of Zelensky's comedy over the last decade to make him look like a dickhead who's not fit for office; that's intellectually dishonest, as with selective editing you could do it with many comics including many of the true greats. Well, look at how he's conducting himself in this conflict. He's worth a million of that evil, foul, amoral, Botox-overdosed, cuntish dwarf you have in the Kremlin.
6. Also from the head of the Russia Today media stable Margarita Simonyan, a revealing action on social media laying bare how the Russian elite actually thinks. She retweeted some unhinged government nobody railing about people within Russia who don't believe the state propaganda being traitors and needing to be dealt with. The country's making itself an international pariah and as a result leading to the significant impoverishment of its people. Call yourself patriots? Don't insult our intelligence, you gaslighting cunts.
7. Russia has started to ban Facebook, allegedly because of it having marked some Russian state sources as fake news (still working for me, though). They're also managed to slow or cut off internet connections across Ukraine as well. This shows that they're rattled, I think, but also has me a little concerned. As state TV laughably claims no Russian casualties here, there's obviously a narrative they want to suppress. I hope it's just that things aren't going as well as expected but fear there could be atrocities they want to hide.
8. That's pretty well it. On Thursday, I was somewhat stunned for the reason discussed in para 1 above. I've overcome that, but the unmitigated horror and revulsion I feel is only becoming stronger as the days pass.