Serious question...

Big Yaya Wilko 12 said:
It devastates me, frankly. Totally ruins my week. Until about Thursday, when I start worrying about the next game.

I genuinely think having a mental illness (depression/anxiety) exacerbates the whole thing. It's an obsession that expands the more I brood upon the events of the afternoon of a loss.

Me and my girlfriend are looking at getting some help for it, to be honest. I want to enjoy football, not obsess over it.

Intellectually I know it's of no consequence whether 11 millionaires win at a game over 90 minutes on a Saturday, and that upsets me even more; I know, and am fully aware that football is just football and just a game and, crucially, a form of entertainment! But I'm so emotionally invested, so indoctrinated that it makes me feel very vivid, very extreme emotions. Elation, exhilaration all the way to despair. I almost grieve results. Which is ridiculous. I'm aware of the ridiculousness of this, which exacerbates the whole thing further and hence the looking into getting some help.

My theory on it is quite closely linked to the notion of the absurd (as in Camus' definition of the absurd). Through my own awareness of the complete randomness of the universe, I cling to the very linear and binary and sensical stimulus that football provides. It's almost like a bi-polar manifestation, I suppose. (I do not have bi-polar disorder, by the way).

I have a complex relationship with football altogether, especially in terms of how it makes me feel and my own lack of perspective on the whole thing.

I am over analytical in the extreme, anyway. And football almost panders to that innate overwroughtness. And I hate it in a way. But like a beaten dog I keep coming back.

I've often wondered if others are the same as me, or if this correlates with anyone else feelings?

Sorry for the rant. And sorry if that was unclear. it was more a flurry of thought than a well thought out thesis. I may study this deeper though.

Can anybody else relate? Anyone have any advice for this?
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Every week i tell myself not to get so worked up but i can't help it

If i ever find a way then you are top of my list to tell :)
 
I get pissed off for a few hours, then I'll give my fanny a wipe and realise that its a game and move on.

That being said, its generally easier for me to move on these days as I'm far from home where nobody apart from me really gives a fuck about the game. If I was still back home I'd have a much harder time no doubt.
 
Big Yaya Wilko 12 said:
It devastates me, frankly. Totally ruins my week. Until about Thursday, when I start worrying about the next game.

I genuinely think having a mental illness (depression/anxiety) exacerbates the whole thing. It's an obsession that expands the more I brood upon the events of the afternoon of a loss.

Me and my girlfriend are looking at getting some help for it, to be honest. I want to enjoy football, not obsess over it.

Intellectually I know it's of no consequence whether 11 millionaires win at a game over 90 minutes on a Saturday, and that upsets me even more; I know, and am fully aware that football is just football and just a game and, crucially, a form of entertainment! But I'm so emotionally invested, so indoctrinated that it makes me feel very vivid, very extreme emotions. Elation, exhilaration all the way to despair. I almost grieve results. Which is ridiculous. I'm aware of the ridiculousness of this, which exacerbates the whole thing further and hence the looking into getting some help.

My theory on it is quite closely linked to the notion of the absurd (as in Camus' definition of the absurd). Through my own awareness of the complete randomness of the universe, I cling to the very linear and binary and sensical stimulus that football provides. It's almost like a bi-polar manifestation, I suppose. (I do not have bi-polar disorder, by the way).

I have a complex relationship with football altogether, especially in terms of how it makes me feel and my own lack of perspective on the whole thing.

I am over analytical in the extreme, anyway. And football almost panders to that innate overwroughtness. And I hate it in a way. But like a beaten dog I keep coming back.

I've often wondered if others are the same as me, or if this correlates with anyone else feelings?

Sorry for the rant. And sorry if that was unclear. it was more a flurry of thought than a well thought out thesis. I may study this deeper though.

Can anybody else relate? Anyone have any advice for this?
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this is quite a lucid analysis of your state of mind... which tells me that you can't be too far from devising a solution... do you find writing therapeutic? if so, i suggest you keep writing hopefully that will bring relieve...
 
Big Yaya Wilko 12 said:
It devastates me, frankly. Totally ruins my week. Until about Thursday, when I start worrying about the next game.

I genuinely think having a mental illness (depression/anxiety) exacerbates the whole thing. It's an obsession that expands the more I brood upon the events of the afternoon of a loss.

Me and my girlfriend are looking at getting some help for it, to be honest. I want to enjoy football, not obsess over it.

Intellectually I know it's of no consequence whether 11 millionaires win at a game over 90 minutes on a Saturday, and that upsets me even more; I know, and am fully aware that football is just football and just a game and, crucially, a form of entertainment! But I'm so emotionally invested, so indoctrinated that it makes me feel very vivid, very extreme emotions. Elation, exhilaration all the way to despair. I almost grieve results. Which is ridiculous. I'm aware of the ridiculousness of this, which exacerbates the whole thing further and hence the looking into getting some help.

My theory on it is quite closely linked to the notion of the absurd (as in Camus' definition of the absurd). Through my own awareness of the complete randomness of the universe, I cling to the very linear and binary and sensical stimulus that football provides. It's almost like a bi-polar manifestation, I suppose. (I do not have bi-polar disorder, by the way).

I have a complex relationship with football altogether, especially in terms of how it makes me feel and my own lack of perspective on the whole thing.

I am over analytical in the extreme, anyway. And football almost panders to that innate overwroughtness. And I hate it in a way. But like a beaten dog I keep coming back.

I've often wondered if others are the same as me, or if this correlates with anyone else feelings?

Sorry for the rant. And sorry if that was unclear. it was more a flurry of thought than a well thought out thesis. I may study this deeper though.

Can anybody else relate? Anyone have any advice for this?
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City to a lot of our supporters is a massive part of their life , we now have four generations of blues in our family , and yes it is an obsession for me , but i look at it , as a healthy obsession , its something to believe in , show passion and commitment , and dont forget , its the hurt we feel when we lose , that makes the victories so much sweeter. Lets face it ,if you have supported city for any length of time , you have to be as mad as a box of frogs :)
 
Hinchcliffes chin said:
How much does City getting beat effect your weekend and general state of mind??
Got to say it fecking floors me and mine! I can't turn this weekend around now,its all about getting to the next game,prem game anyway,im just not feeling the ucl.
Just get me to next weekend,let's get back on track and bury todays shambles,I mean how do you lot turn your weekends back around? I've got four children I should be entertaining that should take my mind off City as well as other things to be getting on with but it never works!??
On occasion we get beat at home these days it proper spoils the beer down town later on,and on rare occasion I've been known just to f##k off back home straight after! Just wanted to know how some of you lot handle it,I've done all that 'argh FCK it let's get smashed' when I was younger, just seems harder to shake off the disappointment these days.
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I feel exactly the same mate its also sickening to see the table now after the rags win double blow.
 
Went to watch the classic car racing at oulton park instead of listening to any more football,
Made my mind up would rather watch a spineless city performance than anything to do with Motorsport
 
Losing boils my piss, I hate injustice and we always seem to lose in some bullshit circumstance. Or the team really don't play like we know they can and it's even more bloody frustrating
 
If you ever feel bad after a loss you only have to do one thing.

Picture the rags faces as the Sunderland fans started cheering when it filtered through to the Stadium of Light that Sergio had scored in the last minute of the whole season to deprive them of the title.

And then imagine that Sergio missed against QPR.

It will make you realise that although losing is shit, we will always have that amazing moment that sometimes I still can't believe actually happened.
 
I understand that some people say it hurts more no we are competing for trophies every season. However, I remember the sick feeling of the final few games of our relegation fights. Would lose sleep the nights before stand in the shower the morning of the games feeling sick. The relagation to the third division. For 40 odd years it's always been the same but I guess the difference this time around is I know with our amazing owners we always have a chance. Back in the dark days it was season after season of worry. However for 40 years my weekends are ruined by defeats but the good thing is these days I do at least have more good weekends than bad.
 
evianglass said:
this is quite a lucid analysis of your state of mind... which tells me that you can't be too far from devising a solution... do you find writing therapeutic? if so, i suggest you keep writing hopefully that will bring relieve...
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It's very much a product of rumination. It's something that I thought about and tried to analyse objectively over the summer while there was no football on.

Yes, I do. I suppose, by definition I'm a writer. I've had a few poems published, wrote a terrible attempt at a novel at 18 years old, just started working on a new one last week and only just completed my degree in English Literature three weeks ago and have been accepted onto a masters degree in creative writing. So I do finding writing very cathartic.

It's why I post on here. It's also why most of my posts are 'negative' because, as well as being a natural pessimist, it's just as I feel like I have to get those negative thoughts out of my head and onto the page, so to speak. . .
 
jimmygrimblesboots said:
City to a lot of our supporters is a massive part of their life , we now have four generations of blues in our family , and yes it is an obsession for me , but i look at it , as a healthy obsession , its something to believe in , show passion and commitment , and dont forget , its the hurt we feel when we lose , that makes the victories so much sweeter. Lets face it ,if you have supported city for any length of time , you have to be as mad as a box of frogs :)
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Ha! I'm trying to keep a handle on the obsession, in terms of perspective, believe me.
 
I used to let it get to me, but the impact is minimal bordering on no change in my mental state at all these days. I still like it when we win mind.

Actually, it's about how we lose that determines how much I care.
 
LOve it when we win. Anyone that lets a loss ruin their weekend and make em depressed needs to find some perspective.

We are in a better position as a club as we have ever been.
 
It depends on the game..We get beaten by the better team then it doesn't bother me at all...But days like today wind me up enough to last at least until the next game.
 
Wasn't pissed off with the West Ham defeat because we played well. But that performance today was comical, really put me on a downer. I can't even be arsed thinking about Wednesday, I struggle to get motivated for the cl as it is. We need our key players back, and back in form quickly.
 
Have I just woke from a coma after a relegation battle or sommat? Have a spliff and get drunk ;)

Must admit though. It was a lot easier to take when we were crap. Everything else was a bonus.
 
It used to ruin my week but now when I get home and my beautiful kids are there smiling and playing I soon forget about it.
 
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