Anti depressants..

[nw42]

Can't sleep again,having a really bad spell,trying to ride it out with valium instead of going up the citalopram

That sounds grim, hope you can get a kip. I posted in this thread some months ago, was struggling, as usual I just ploughed on and it went away, thankfully. I dread the day when I have to start taking pills to get myself right, seems like a one way street, no return, although I appreciate that's not the case for everyone it does seem like most who start taking them become totally reliant, I'm weak willed enough without getting involved in them.

This year I've kept myself busier than previously, my job only takes just over 4 hours of my day, so I've now built myself a little gardening round, the extra money is great but more importantly I'm not sat on my arse dwelling on stuff any longer, I am physically worn out though, which helps me sleep, so it's not all bad.

Best of luck Karen, you gave me some advice and sympathy last year, much appreciated.

 

[kaz7]

That sounds grim, hope you can get a kip. I posted in this thread some months ago, was struggling, as usual I just ploughed on and it went away, thankfully. I dread the day when I have to start taking pills to get myself right, seems like a one way street, no return, although I appreciate that's not the case for everyone it does seem like most who start taking them become totally reliant, I'm weak willed enough without getting involved in them.

This year I've kept myself busier than previously, my job only takes just over 4 hours of my day, so I've now built myself a little gardening round, the extra money is great but more importantly I'm not sat on my arse dwelling on stuff any longer, I am physically worn out though, which helps me sleep, so it's not all bad.

Best of luck Karen, you gave me some advice and sympathy last year, much appreciated.

Thanks honey,i'm pleased to hear from you,i've suffered a bearevement 3 nights ago,i can't sleep as i keep reliving the phone call and decisions i had to take during that night,i'm hoping i'm stable enough to ride this out,it might hit me more in the coming days/weeks but i don't want to up the citalapram and zispin,i'll try and resist that,thanks again x

 

[kaz7]

Been awake all night for a week or so,suffered a major bereavement all of a sudden,during the day i can keep my mind busy but the nights are awful

 

[citytilllidie]

Been awake all night for a week or so,suffered a major bereavement all of a sudden,during the day i can keep my mind busy but the nights are awful

Sorry for your loss Karen.
Keep your chin up, there's always a patch of Sky Blue somewhere in dark times

 

[kaz7]

Sorry for your loss Karen.
Keep your chin up, there's always a patch of Sky Blue somewhere in dark times

Thanks honey,just to have people around even on the internet helps

 

[Nebuchadnezzar]

Been awake all night for a week or so,suffered a major bereavement all of a sudden,during the day i can keep my mind busy but the nights are awful

Hope you get better. You're amongst friends here x

 

[Bigga]

Wow, my 'hill' is already here!

My wife said to me this morning "What are you wearing tomorrow?" and it took me a few secs to know what she was talking about!

Tomorrow is my Brother's Inquest and it's been bothering me for ages for not dealing with it as I should have for his sons and daughter.

Not slept more than 4 hours for weeks, developed stress twitches down my right side and stopped talking to my siblings for 6 months or so as I thought their approach to evidence finding was wrong. My wife had also been through a pacemaker and hysterectomy surgery in relatively quick succession, so had a lot on my mind.

This is why I ended up on Citalopram through the doc as my weight loss continued after a sabbatical from the gym from stress.

My sister took over what I was doing as my wife was gravely ill, at the time, and I couldn't deal with both things. She headed into a different direction than my lead and discovered, at the last minute some evidence of misdiagnosis.

She doesn't picked up the phone to me, but I left her a message, in the morning, to say that was a good find.

I lost 90% of the twitching, that night. I'm hoping that in a couple of weeks to wind down the pills and return to dealing with shit on my own.

 

[Met Line Hammer]

I came off cold turkey from mirtazapin and quetiapine. NOT a good idea, but felt I had to as I wanted to be 'awake' for my course to qualify as a PT. I guess to effects were somewhat mitigated by the physical and mental exertion of,the course. Two years down the line still off them but still get wobbles.

All i can say is SPEAK to people, no matter how burdensome you think you are to people (you're not btw). Don't hide away. Easier said than done but just do it. My West Ham mates conversations went about as deep as the size of the barmaids tits normally, but once I opened up I was blown away by the support.

Karen, keep on keeping on mate. You know where I am

 

[kaz7]

I came off cold turkey from mirtazapin and quetiapine. NOT a good idea, but felt I had to as I wanted to be 'awake' for my course to qualify as a PT. I guess to effects were somewhat mitigated by the physical and mental exertion of,the course. Two years down the line still off them but still get wobbles.

All i can say is SPEAK to people, no matter how burdensome you think you are to people (you're not btw). Don't hide away. Easier said than done but just do it. My West Ham mates conversations went about as deep as the size of the barmaids tits normally, but once I opened up I was blown away by the support.

Karen, keep on keeping on mate. You know where I am

Thanks lovely x

 

[stonerblue]

Thanks honey,just to have people around even on the internet helps

Very good point Karen, and one dismissed by quite a few posters.
Due to disability my wife finds it almost immpossible to get out and see her friends, anyone in fact. Most days just having a chat with the check out staff at asdas is the only face to face interaction she has. She now uses technology to chat with her friends. This can be texting, skype or even facebook. Without the tech she would have topped herself.

Regarding your current problem i think it's helpful to realise it's ok and perfectly reasonable to be depressed about a bereavement or other such 'bad shit' that happens. Tere'd be something wrong with you if you didn't. Obviously - and i don't wanna teach you to suck eggs here - coming out the other side is the tricky bit. Set yourself a 'grieving limit' and go full on pissed off during it. Have an end date set and line something nice up for it (fancy meal, new togs, spa day or whatever)