Same as you, couldn’t give a shit that I’m gonna be worm food soon enough.I used to worry about getting old and dying when I was a young kid. Especially at night in bed, used to shit me up!
My first proper girlfriend when I was 18 used to have counselling about the same thing when she was young.
Now, even though I’m getting older, I barely ever think about it. I think I’ve come to terms with the thought that we are just a collection of cells and when we die, we die, like any other collection of cells do and our collection of cells just rot in the ground and that’s that.
Now I know that’s the case, I’m fine with it. When I was a kid I went to a CofE Primary School and was brainwashed by religion and i think it used to worry me whether there was an afterlife and what it all meant… this is as a young 6-8 year old! But when I got to about 8 years old used to think “this is just a load of made up rubbish all this”, and by my teens I was a convinced atheist.
I’m more content with the fact that nobody “Rests In Peace”, there’s no afterlife, no spirits or souls, no ghosts, no heaven or hell, nobody looks down on us from above; than I would be if there was all these things.
It’s my offspring and their offspring dying that scares the shit out of me.