How is everyone coping?

give it to gordon said:
Badly today !

I have no idea why I am feeling shit today just woke up with a strong sence of wanting to have a chat with my dad who passed away 3 years ago. Dont know where this feeling is coming from having trouble fighting back the tears.

I think perhaps shielding is getting to me abit. I am luck because I am not on my own but my missus works so I have 9 hrs of seeing and talking to no one. I am getting abit snappie with the missus when she comes in. I try not to but she asks 'what you been up to day ' .....the fucking same as fucking yesterday I feel like screaming. It's not fair on her but I can feel myself sinking and I dont like it.

I think I still have to shield till end of march now going by the news so will force myself to get out on one of my bikes, the mountain bike first I guess.

When I sink like this I start to feel sorry for myself when in fact I am ok really. I hate paying rent (ex got the house ) , I hate I cant see anyway for retirement as I need to pay pvt rent :(. My body is falling apart because of years of manual work. But need to earn a certain amount to pay rent and Bill's etc. I cant see away of getting to enjoy retirement, I wont get a council house and my pension wont pay for 1k month rent. I feel lost and lonely and hard done by.
I have worked hard all my life started a pension when I was 17, bought my own house. Than the ex started getting violent so I left on lad came straight away with me, now 5 years later the other lad is with me.

I know I have alot to be grateful for a lovely new missus who loves my kids. Two great kids. A decent job. I just wish my head wouldn't get like this. My eldest pays for us to come up to watch City :)

Sorry for this ramble..
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Keep your chin up mate,and just think by the time the shielding process is over for you,we will be champions,and you can get on that bike,get a City shirt on and ride around that area smiling !!
 
Very low I'm afraid. I dont think I can cope with much more than a month and a half of this shit. Thank goodness City are top of the league
 
I’ve used work as a distraction, which is a positive I’m doing alright there. But lately feel absolutely pooped, did a normal week this week and 10 hours on call too, and there’s no outlets it’s not like I can go to the pub and chill out, and my relationship with my Mrs, well I don’t know if it’s on or off. It’s having a toll
 
I've been coping alright the last year or so but it really hit me tonight that I just wanted to go out and get pissed with my friends and have a laugh and live life. Can see some light at the end of the tunnel with the vaccine rollout so just gotta hang in there.
 
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