how was your day?

[normskih]

Full of emotion at the minute, hating my time at work even though I'm earning a wage that I never thought I'd ever achieve. Only £45k which isn't much in UK anymore but it's stuff me and my Mrs could only have dreamt of a few years ago.

I train in the gym religiously most days which keeps the demons at bay, but increasingly feeling like I'm in the wrong room at work. Have no real working relationships with any of the team. First thought of the day the last few days has been to go lie in the bath when my Mrs goes out to work and cut my wrists and femoral artery, leave a note on door to say don't come in and call the police. Then the logical side of my brain says don't ever do that to that girl, or whilst your parents are still alive.

I've had chronic depression I'd say for as long as I can remember. Likely following a family trauma as a child that I blamed on myself for many years. I've had the therapy and am teetotal but not had a wave like this in a good 2 or 3 years. Confidence through the floor and certain colleagues irritating the life out of me whenever I see or hear them in the office.

I know I'll come through this but very close to walking away from yet another job, early 30s and still don't know what I want to do with my life career wise.

Sounds like you still may need to talk to some professional people, my friend.

 

[normskih]

The pain i have today is mostly from sitting upright for the hours trip to the clinic and back and being there , forcing my hips into that position really is agony , not even got started on the exercises yet , lol. They shouldnt be too taxing , subtle stretching of the nerves supplying my hips is the starting point , will try from later today

Is it arthritis?

 

[kaz7]

Keep your spirits up hun. Can you not get out and go for walks like you used to? X

Cant walk right now , the last four months have really hurt, made worse by walking , really itching to get going again , hopefully soon as i miss it a lot

 

[kaz7]

Is it arthritis?

No, just had an mri scan and it was clear , no athritis

 

[normskih]

No, just had an mri scan and it was clear , no athritis

Wonder what it can be then?

 

[BlueMoonRisin’]

Cant walk right now , the last four months have really hurt, made worse by walking , really itching to get going again , hopefully soon as i miss it a lot

What about swimming? Nice gentle exercise.

 

[Bill Walker]

Wonder what it can be then?

Too much sex.

 

[dronefromsector7G]

Too much sex.

No wonder you never have any pains

 

[normskih]

Too much sex.

Is the right @kaz7

 

[kaz7]

Wonder what it can be then?

It is fibromyalgia , had it for a long time but this flare up is much worse than usual and they think has a nerve inflammation element to it this time and also the condition has entered a new painful stage , oh joy