Best wishes from me, mate. I can't think of a man alive that wouldn't be scared in your position. In a way you'd be foolish not to be scared.
There's not much anybody can say really, but you have the collective goodwill of every blue on here, so that's got to count for something right?
The courage you have shown just to get through what you have so far is inspiring, so keep on inspiring us and in doing so you'll help future blues who are unfortunate enough to be put in your position.
Best of luck, I've got a lot of faith that you'll pull through it.