Suicide

[Always Ali]

A subject close to my heart with me having a psychiatric illness. Im more stable now than I have been for four years but I was in a bad way for a while.

My sister stopped me from hanging myself, I never thought anyone would know where to find me but some kind of intuition saved me and scarred my poor sister.

My mum wanted me sectioned because of how bad I was, I think they knew there was a determination in me not take the pressure of the illness anymore and just end it.

I wouldnt wish psychiatric/depressive illness on my worst enemy and hope one day I can help people that are in a position I have been in.

Bless you mate it takes a lot of strenghth to talk about depresion/mental illness even if it is faceless like this. Someone very close to me suffered terribly from depression and I could not see how desperate they had become and luckily they are now through it.
Keep strong and maybe you should pursue your wish to help others.

 

[ElanJo]

I had a phase as a curious teen with internet in my room of watching bud dwyers and videos like that, not nice and a lot are hard to watch. I thought the worst one was some guy called kim sun il (somehting like that) who they made beg on video to his country to pull troops out, you could see the depseration in him and as you knew what was coming it was hard to watch. Paul Marshall was another one which was a close up, I couldn't bring myself to watch the Ken Bigley one. People getting stoned to death is very nasty shit as well, even more brutal than you'd think. Rememebr another one where it was just a vid of loads of people getting their tongues lobbed off, and another where a guy had his arm tied to the back of a car which drove off and ripped him in half. Ogrish is gone now I think they're all on liveleak? Dunno I don't watch em anymore

Suicide though, don't really think about it to be honest. Pretty sure that whatever way I chose to do it I'd be very drunk.

I watched the Ken Bigley one because I always want to know rather than be told. At the time, it made me more angry than I can ever recall a film of anything making me before. Suicide is one thing, brutal execution is quite another.

Aye, I watched it not out of some sick fascination ( I didn't want to watch it) but because I felt I had to know what we (rational people) were up against. The video I saw wasn't as bad as I thought it would be because you don't actually see the beheading take place due to the crowd of Allah chanting vermin surrounding him. It was a shock to see them hold up his head afterwards. Like you it made me furious... to the extent that for a split second I thought that we should just nuke the whole damn middle east and put the world out of its misery.

There are alot more graphic ones around "beheadings in Islam" shows one that it particularly horrific. There's even a beheading in the middle of the sodding street (in Iraq i believe). Islam is fucking sick.

The videos can be seen here <a class="postlink" href="http://espanol.video.yahoo.com" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;">http://espanol.video.yahoo.com</a> (not a direct link - you'll still have to search for them)

 

[scowy68]

An old school mate of mine lost his father to suicide,his wife died and he could no longer muster up the will to live.Simple as that.Another lad i knew the same age as me,took his life because his ex wouldn't ket him see his daughter.

I don't knock anybody for doing it,we are all different in how we handle things in life,some people are strong,some are not.

 

[yatesy94]

My dad knows this woman and her son committed suicide about three months ago. He had some illness where he claimed he kept seeing dead people and he couldn't cope. My dad actually did have a talk with about it but unfortunately he hung himself a few weeks later. Really sad....

 

[berger10]

Bless you mate it takes a lot of strenghth to talk about depresion/mental illness even if it is faceless like this. Someone very close to me suffered terribly from depression and I could not see how desperate they had become and luckily they are now through it.
Keep strong and maybe you should pursue your wish to help others.

Thanks blue! Depression is quite a secretive illness because of the shame felt by having it. In the past it was not something I would talk about but im quite open about it now and iv just signed up for home study courses on counselling, life coaching and neuro-linguistic programming. Hopefully it will help me but also lead me onto a career path I could actually enjoy!

 

[liamctid]

I'll never forget when I was younger, think I was 14 and it was the day before I went back to school in September. We had football training that night. This lad called Lee (who I fucking hate these days) came up to me and said 'fuck me, did you hear about Preston? He hung himself.' This lad called Tom Preston was two years older than me, and I wouldn't say I knew him really well, but we'd known each other (through school) since I was about 5 and he 7. We used to knock about the village park around that sorta age. He was really confident and a proper good laugh, everyone knew him and everyone had an opinion on him - he was very loud, so some people didn't like him as they thought he was a bit too much - but I always got on with him. Apparently he had done shit in his GCSE's, his bird had just dumped him, his step dad used to batter him and he owed a fair whack to drug dealers. I haven't really thought about this for years, but he was only 16 - shocking. He would only be 23 now, still so young.

And then strangely a year later... There was another lad called Ben Harrison, and I knew who he was, and he knew who I was, but we didn't know each other - to the point where I cannot recall ever having a conversation with him. He was a year older than me, and again, September time, he was found hanging. I don't know what his motive was, and I doubt I'll ever find out as I wasn't really close to any of his close mates. Again, only 16 when he died.

Very shocking when you consider I live in a small Bedfordshire village where nothing ever happens!

R.I.P. to the both of them.

 

[ElanJo]

This isn't to trivialise the subject of suicide in any way, infact I knew of a few people who committed suicide, and I understand it's a serious matter, but, according to some study I read a while back, quite a few teenage suicides have been accidental death due to "erotic asphyxiation" gone wrong. I'd never really thought of it before I read the study but it makes sense. Of course, I would say most suicides are infact suicides but I thought I'd just bring that little bit of info to the table :)

 

[berger10]

This isn't to trivialise the subject of suicide in any way, infact I knew of a few people who committed suicide, and I understand it's a serious matter, but, according to some study I read a while back, quite a few teenage suicides have been accidental death due to "erotic asphyxiation" gone wrong. I'd never really thought of it before I read the study but it makes sense. Of course, I would say most suicides are infact suicides but I thought I'd just bring that little bit of info to the table :)

They reckon thats how that old karate actor died last week! First time I ever heard of it was when it was in a storyline in an episode of 'Six Feet Under' about 5 years ago. Apparently your supposed to put a piece of lemon in your mouth as the bitter taste when you bite down causes you to regain consciousness. Now thats really getting caught with your pants down!

 

[langy[wales]]

another iv watched is a pedophile in front of a big crowed of people geting his just deserts i think its kebab man or human kebab google it

 

[Blue Si O.B]

is this thread in case we dont get tevez???????