SWP's back said:
You fail to take on sage advice Bob and wear bracelets.
Oxygen thief.
Look, I'm doing my best.
Right now I honestly don't feel like living very much. As much as she did my head in, she was my world for more than two of the seventeen years I've had on this planet. I know you are recently engaged; what would you do if your fiancée left you? Would you want to cut her out, knowing that she's been there every waking moment for you for a very long time?
I gave everything 'pure' about my childhood to this girl in the hope that we would be together forever. The trust and understanding we had with each other is honestly something I think I'm never going to replace. Sure she used to piss me off but when we were together, everything just felt perfect.
My main point is, it's been just over 48 hours since she broke up with me. I don't understand why you think I'm ready to make any kind of a decision.