Honestly,I hope you're right.
My world and life as been turned on its head.
Everything involved alcohol and nothing feels the same any
more,from listening to music to going to City to virtually everything.My enthusiasm as gone.
I've been there and it's an awful place. The thoughts of, "I can't be bothered". "What's the point?"
It's the drink that's done that. Taken away your self esteem and confidence.
The point is you've got a son. You need to open up to him and I am sure that he will help you through this.
Me, I've drunk so much over the years (shortly I'll be 65) thought I was being clever, I could drink more than anyone, it won't ever affect me, I won't be one of those red nosed losers sat in the vault, I can stop any time.
At 64 I stopped. I stopped because I got bored with it. I stopped because it costs a lot of money. I stopped because it cost me in my work and family life. I stopped because it was such a waste of time.
Ok, perhaps I didn't drink as much as you in a session but I supped pretty much everything from age of about 17. Chesters mild, Robbies Old Tom, Special brew Gold Label, nice wines at home, spirits in Rotters, Fagins and The Swinging Sporran. The express club, green door and others for a/t. I've done the lot.
At age 64 I finally grew up, and now, really, I can have an occasional drink and know my limit and don't let it become a habit. I'm lucky, I can switch off the stupidity, see it for what it is and if it ever starts to bring me down, I stop.
11 months since I stopped and during that time I've had maybe 10 pints.
Good luck to you and yours mate. It's a tough gig but you're doing well and you'll get there!