I have been there, so I totally get where you're coming from. I would try your best to just...well...forget about it all though. I just went out to get my haircut. I live in town, so after I had it cut, I was in the centre so I popped into boots to grab some bits I needed. The weather was nice, so I got an iced coffee, had a podcast on and got some food from the Vietnamese place on Oxford road. I got home, ate the food with the doors open, watched the highlights from last night again, and forgot all about covid for a couple of hours. I really, really enjoyed it. Then I looked in here and sunk a bit again. It's silly, but it's an easy trap to fall into. There's no point though, cos literally *nothing* changes if I check this thread or not. Nothing. Pandemic is still here. I may as well just try and be in a good mood as opposed to a bad one, right?
My advice. Mute 'covid', 'coronavirus', 'delta' etc etc on Twitter for a week. Delete the news apps off your phone. Ask one of the mods on here to thread ban you so you can't post in here (seriously, I asked Ric to do it for me). I've done all that before. It helped, loads. Trust me. Then just go for a long walk, treat yourself, do anything. Play a game. Put an album on. Go for a run. Go cinema. Go and sit in a cafe and have a coffee. Go for a walk, listen to some music unreasonably loud. Anything. Force yourself to do it. If you feel the urge to check, don't. Do sumat else. Anything. You'll be surprised how much of a difference it makes. Covid is shite, but there is nothing any of us can do on a purely individual basis other than being responsible for our own actions.
It will go up, but it will also go down again. We know cos that has happened. One day it will go and life will move on. It will, cos well..it has to - that's how these things work. Dunno how long it'll take, but probably not as long as the negative parts of our brain thinks. Trust me when I say you're missing out on nothing by micro-analysing the day to day changes. I gave myself panic attacks last year doing this stuff. I've never even been remotely like that in my life, but I was doomscrolling and ruining my entire week. Thing is, there is zero point. I get the urge for info, as I'm like that, but I was accomplishing nothing. You simply have to know when to switch off. Eventually you're accomplishing nothing other than getting yourself down.
Force yourself to try and just forget about it for a couple of days. The stats will be there tomorrow still. Everything else is just opinion, noise and kinda pointless. It doesn't change anything. You can choose to read about covid, or you can choose to read a book or do something else. I am very happy to even DM you a bunch of things to do if you want mate. I read a few books last year that I forced myself to read and the escapism was mint. Totally shook me out of my slump. I know its a lonely, shite time, but you'll be fine mate. Trust me!
Edit - try and get some perspective too btw mate. Everytime I see the numbers and panic, I force myself to remember just how many people there are in this country. 30 a day dying sounds awful, but well...it's low. In 2019, over 600,000 people died in a year. About 1600 per day. None of us likely knew that, cos why would we? Also, saying 2,000 people in hospital sounds dead scary, but there are 1250 NHS hospitals in the UK according to google. Suddenly that doesn't seem that mad does it? These numbers are something we're not used to so we lack perspective. Try and remember that when reading these stats. Life is brutal, but right now it's currently in terms of mortality not that different to how it always has been. Sounds cold, but that's true.
