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Eccles Blue said:
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My 'baby' brother died yesterday. He was 62 years old and lived down south and I hadn't seen him since before Covid. He was 1 year older than my oldest child.

I can't sleep, I was watching football and posting on here when he died. Am I selfish, was I selfish? I couldn't have driven down to see him so I tell myself I wasn't and he knew I loved him and thought of him.
He died peacefully with his wife beside him. The brother closest in age to him had gone down from Hull to represent us all but he had gone out for a walk.

It was the 'big c' and, for those of you who know my assertion that I can't swear, I actually said the f word on Thursday, followed by the big c word (not the 4 letter one) but I sensed my Dad's arm on my shoulder telling me it was ok just this once.

Sorry to meander on..... I just needed to vent and gear myself up for the day ahead when I have to be strong for the others. As the eldest it's drummed into me from the day the first sibling after me was born. :-)
Sorry.


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Sorry lovely xx
 
Eccles Blue said:
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My 'baby' brother died yesterday. He was 62 years old and lived down south and I hadn't seen him since before Covid. He was 1 year older than my oldest child.

I can't sleep, I was watching football and posting on here when he died. Am I selfish, was I selfish? I couldn't have driven down to see him so I tell myself I wasn't and he knew I loved him and thought of him.
He died peacefully with his wife beside him. The brother closest in age to him had gone down from Hull to represent us all but he had gone out for a walk.

It was the 'big c' and, for those of you who know my assertion that I can't swear, I actually said the f word on Thursday, followed by the big c word (not the 4 letter one) but I sensed my Dad's arm on my shoulder telling me it was ok just this once.

Sorry to meander on..... I just needed to vent and gear myself up for the day ahead when I have to be strong for the others. As the eldest it's drummed into me from the day the first sibling after me was born. :-)
Sorry.


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My health stopped me going home to cornwall to see my brother when he died with lung cancer last year , neither of us could travel that far anymore so just accepted it , your brother would have known you love him x
 
So sorry to hear this Sheila. My condolences to you all.

It's no age but it made me smile that he was an uncle before he was out of nappies. Mourn him but don't beat yourself up about what you could have done. His fate wasn't determined by whether you were there or not.

I'd also say don't feel it's your duty to be strong for everyone else. Support your family of course but express your grief in the way you want. I'm sure you have many happy memories of the two little boys playing together.
 
Eccles Blue said:
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My 'baby' brother died yesterday. He was 62 years old and lived down south and I hadn't seen him since before Covid. He was 1 year older than my oldest child.

I can't sleep, I was watching football and posting on here when he died. Am I selfish, was I selfish? I couldn't have driven down to see him so I tell myself I wasn't and he knew I loved him and thought of him.
He died peacefully with his wife beside him. The brother closest in age to him had gone down from Hull to represent us all but he had gone out for a walk.

It was the 'big c' and, for those of you who know my assertion that I can't swear, I actually said the f word on Thursday, followed by the big c word (not the 4 letter one) but I sensed my Dad's arm on my shoulder telling me it was ok just this once.

Sorry to meander on..... I just needed to vent and gear myself up for the day ahead when I have to be strong for the others. As the eldest it's drummed into me from the day the first sibling after me was born. :-)
Sorry.


EDIT: Mods, if this shouldn't be here, please feel free to delete it. :-)
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Thank you again everyone. I slept for 3 hrs this afternoon, having spoken to all remaining siblings this morning.
We laughed and we cried as we talked memories, just as @Prestwich_Blue said, and we all agreed that he will be watching the game over our shoulder tonight.
Unfortunately, like the other brothers, he supported Trafford Utd, although rarely watching them live. :-)
Thank you again. It helps that we could smile at some memories. :-( :-)
 
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