MCFC Wirral
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All my cannulas are now out and I’m only on some basic assisted breathing. The reversal was always going to be far less brutal than the original op.
Little by little, better and better!All my cannulas are now out and I’m only on some basic assisted breathing. The reversal was always going to be far less brutal than the original op.
hang tough fella.All my cannulas are now out and I’m only on some basic assisted breathing. The reversal was always going to be far less brutal than the original op.
So happy to read you've come out the other end of that mateWhere to start!
I'm at the end of a 4 year period where my mental health imploded. It's important to say that I never once thought of ending it all but I did find myself in dark periods thinking maybe I should just go away and everyone else will be better off without me.
My mum died as I held her hand 1 day after my birthday, 2 days before her birthday and 1 week before the 1st lockdown. More importantly it was 7 weeks before the birth of my Daughter.
The reason it's important is for the sake of my wife and my unborn child I pushed all my grief and heartache deep down and stayed strong for them and to get us through what was also an utterly terrifying time. On the anniversary of my mums death a year later something happened to me and I didn't even know.
One evening my wife sat me down and said what's going on with you, you don't smile, talk or laugh anymore, your body is here but your not. Then it hit me all at once amd I fell to bits, like literally in pieces a broken shell of the man I had been only 18 months earlier.
So I was signed off work, put on happy pills (worse decision ever made) and started rebuilding myself.
I got a new job not long after which I didn't realise at the time meant I wouldn't see my daughter from Sunday night until Saturday morning amd as this made me so sad I stayed on the happy pills, the problem with these things is they suck everything out of you, not just the sadness, excitement, energy, fun, every emotion and feeling subdued, i also gained 35lbs!
However such is life I sacked that job off after 8 months and got a really good one I'm still in to this day. 2 months in to new job I decided to come off these pills however I probably wasn't ready and quickly turned to alcohol to put myself to sleep at night......... well coma. I was hiding this kind of in plain sight of my wife, I had always liked a drink so the increase was when she went to bed. Then one night I really fucked up and while I don't want to go into that one I nearly lost my marriage and child. That was 12 months ago so I went sober for 4 months then slowest reintroduced alcohol and I'm good now.
I think I needed to hit bottom, I had been close many times but once I hit it I manged to start clawing back some of me. Also my step dad died in this time but he's a **** so fuck him!!
I cant advise anyone on mental health but I'm always willing to listen now because I know the complete oblivion your mind goes in to when it happens.
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MCFC Wirrill at the moment!
Stoma reversal yesterday after a five hour operation. I’m pushing the morphine button every six minutes and even the slightest cough is making pain.
Whilst I’m over the worst, I’ve another day or two of this.
Keep me in your thoughts, please.
All my cannulas are now out and I’m only on some basic assisted breathing. The reversal was always going to be far less brutal than the original op.
Wishing you a steady and successful recovery. Don't rush it.All my cannulas are now out and I’m only on some basic assisted breathing. The reversal was always going to be far less brutal than the original op.
Oof. I am sorry to hear that. Just piles on sometimes.Apparently my dogs dying too. Comes in fours. (Furs?)