I just fucked things up for myself real bad. Past two weeks i havent seen my gf much coz shes been staying over at her cousans in London. Felt very horny (lol) and started thinking about my ex.... Thought id give her a call and she agreed to meet me, obviously because shes still deeply in love with me. I thought id try to be clever and be in two relationships at once!
Anyway, met up with her once... Only a bit of kissing to start off with. But as soon as I went back home i thought to myself "what the fuck have i done"... I felt guilty and regretted it because i do love my current gf a lot and i felt like shit from that point on... I dont even know what made me do this it was just stupid of me to do it. I explained to my ex that i didnt feel right and i couldnt be with her.... She was devastated but promised not to tell anyone about what had happened.... She even said a few months down the line when shes over me we could be friends.... Im just so paranoid thinking what if she does tell.... Ahhh this is too much of a head fuck! And yes im a dick for playing with her feelings!
Anyway, met up with her once... Only a bit of kissing to start off with. But as soon as I went back home i thought to myself "what the fuck have i done"... I felt guilty and regretted it because i do love my current gf a lot and i felt like shit from that point on... I dont even know what made me do this it was just stupid of me to do it. I explained to my ex that i didnt feel right and i couldnt be with her.... She was devastated but promised not to tell anyone about what had happened.... She even said a few months down the line when shes over me we could be friends.... Im just so paranoid thinking what if she does tell.... Ahhh this is too much of a head fuck! And yes im a dick for playing with her feelings!