I grew up in a non-religious family. Didn’t go to a religious school - yes , there was a daily assembly with maybe a hymn sung and a weekly re class but that seems far outweighed by classes in science, maths, languages, even pe/sport. In terms of social groups, I remember one or two families that would maybe call themselves christian - but it hardly ever - if at all - came up in conversations, let alone feeling like it was something that was being forced on me. So, in that sense, it feels like I had a very different experience from you. And your experience doesn’t sound so great, and is a lot different from how I would understand the essence of the message of ‘God.’ But I wouldn’t want to force that idea on you. And , even if I did try to force it and you let me do so, wouldn‘t life be worse for both you and I? Less inspiring? Makes no sense, for me. But sharing/exploring ‘the divine’ with those that wish to…yeah, there can be space for that too, in my books at least.