General / Mental Health Support Thread

Hello all

I have just been back to max fax and they cant fix my numb lip where the original infection was that started this whole mess, they are sending me to nuero next because of the changes in my brain mri, sigh

11 months on and i have seen practically everyone in 3 different hospital plus my gp as i have kidney and brain problems from the arrest and whole body shock, it is ongoing, i didnt believe them when they said for me it would be a 12 month maybe never recovery as when you get past the first 6 months progress slows and things start to become chronic and the fibro in relapse does not help either, the ptsd is much easier which is the best news for me, i am very relieved about that

I am dealing with big damp in the kitchen and trying to save the main carpet so it is keeping my mind occupied, knackering though but i am determined to win lol

Merlin is good, 6 yrs old now so not as fucking crazy, , i have watched all the videos of him sprinting from kitchen and straight up onto the tv and then the curtain rail without stoping and the sitting on the bedroom door, and playing fetch , i had no memory of that which is sad but luckily i have lots recordings, he is fatter and cuddlier, he cant jump up so my tv has survived lol, he only discovered that cuddling and being picked up is lovely when he was left for alone for a week and a bit, he was so happy when i got home, he forgot he didn't like that level of affection but i am very pleased that continues except for the not eating unless i rub the bottom of his back thing, cats eh

Alas i have not returned to city despite my best efforts, i watched a whole game for the first time the other week , i did out of the blue cheer the goals but at the same time couldn't care less about it, it is so fucking weird, i haven't left here and gone somewhere else, i just have nothing to say about football, i will keep trying to reconnect but i accept that my obsessive self has left the building and i don't care enough to call people cunts even lol ,Ric and the mods can sleep easy

Highlight of the year is i have discovered spell checker and the word prompter thing on my phone ! about time. It has taken me nearly an hour to write this even with those things

Please everyone have a nice dec 25th and tell everyone you love them as you never know what the next day will bring , love you blues

Much love xxx
 
kaz7 said:
Hello all

I have just been back to max fax and they cant fix my numb lip where the original infection was that started this whole mess, they are sending me to nuero next because of the changes in my brain mri, sigh

11 months on and i have seen practically everyone in 3 different hospital plus my gp as i have kidney and brain problems from the arrest and whole body shock, it is ongoing, i didnt believe them when they said for me it would be a 12 month maybe never recovery as when you get past the first 6 months progress slows and things start to become chronic and the fibro in relapse does not help either, the ptsd is much easier which is the best news for me, i am very relieved about that

I am dealing with big damp in the kitchen and trying to save the main carpet so it is keeping my mind occupied, knackering though but i am determined to win lol

Merlin is good, 6 yrs old now so not as fucking crazy, , i have watched all the videos of him sprinting from kitchen and straight up onto the tv and then the curtain rail without stoping and the sitting on the bedroom door, and playing fetch , i had no memory of that which is sad but luckily i have lots recordings, he is fatter and cuddlier, he cant jump up so my tv has survived lol, he only discovered that cuddling and being picked up is lovely when he was left for alone for a week and a bit, he was so happy when i got home, he forgot he didn't like that level of affection but i am very pleased that continues except for the not eating unless i rub the bottom of his back thing, cats eh

Alas i have not returned to city despite my best efforts, i watched a whole game for the first time the other week , i did out of the blue cheer the goals but at the same time couldn't care less about it, it is so fucking weird, i haven't left here and gone somewhere else, i just have nothing to say about football, i will keep trying to reconnect but i accept that my obsessive self has left the building and i don't care enough to call people cunts even lol ,Ric and the mods can sleep easy

Highlight of the year is i have discovered spell checker and the word prompter thing on my phone ! about time. It has taken me nearly an hour to write this even with those things

Please everyone have a nice dec 25th and tell everyone you love them as you never know what the next day will bring , love you blues

Much love xxx
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Take care of yourself and your beloved Merlin . Thanks for all your support to not just me but everyone on here. You really help so many and never forget that. Merry Christmas x
 
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ob said:
Take care of yourself and your beloved Merlin . Thanks for all your support to not just me but everyone on you. You really help so many and never forget that. Merry Christmas x
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Thank you that is very kind of you, i like trying to help others and i am always happy to chat, just a chat can really help a lot on down days xx
 
I need to ramble, I think I had some form of panic attack yesterday, never have before.
Back in February I was 'first responder' to two people who had fallen into the harbour.
I was soon followed by another bloke and we pulled the woman up into the pontoon quick and easy. The bloke was big and we couldnt get him out, he was beginning to struggle. Luckily another bloke arrived, we then took his coat of him as that was really heavy, then all 3 of us mention to pull him out.
I then got my work colleague who had turned up to go to the harbour entrance and escort the ambulance to us. We took the casualties into the warmth took of wet clothes and put dry blankets around them.
Once the ambulance arrived I left.

I didnt receive a thank you from the two who were pulled out, still havent some 10 months later !.

Yesterday was our 3 yearly works first aid course. I could feel myself getting uneasy about, I done over 15 first aid courses i recon.
Anyway yesterday I was really struggling, feel sick, shaking. I always hate doing roll play and people touching me, even work colleagues i have known for years.

Anyway we got to the cpr stage. The instructor was great I thought was abit stern.
I started the roll play and as part of it I had to ask him to call an ambulance and say the patient isn't breathing. I said 'could you call an ambulance please' he said 'no' i said ' fuck you im off '. I had forgotten to say the patient isn't breathing.
He called me back and i said what I had forgotten.
I was now really angry and I just went into auto mode and did the cpr correctly.

Afterwards when chatting to a colleague who was an A&E nurse she said the innocent in February could be playing on your mind as to what happen what might of happen etc. That i hadn't talked about it etc.
I have pulled people out of the sea a few times before as part of a group, this time I took charge of the situation.
Perhaps that's why I struggled with the first aid course yesterday.

I dont know i feel abit down, quite abit embarrassed as to my behaviour yesterday.

Hopefully just writing down this ramble will help me !
 
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give it to gordon said:
I need to ramble, I think I had some form of panic attack yesterday, never have before.
Back in February I was 'first responder' to two people who had fallen into the harbour.
I was soon followed by another bloke and we pulled the woman up into the pontoon quick and easy. The bloke was big and we could get him out, he was beginning to struggle. Luckily another bloke arrived, we then took his coat of him as that was really heavy, then all 3 of us mention to pull him out.
I then got my work colleague who had turned up to go to the harbour entrance and escort the ambulance to us. We took the casualties into the warmth took of wet clothes and put dry blankets around them.
Once the ambulance arrived I left.

I didnt receive a thank you from the two who were pulled out, still havent some 10 months later !.

Yesterday was our 3 yearly works first aid course. I could feel myself getting uneasy about, I done over 15 first aid courses i recon.
Anyway yesterday I was really struggling, feel sick, shaking. I always hate doing roll play and people touching me, even work colleagues i have known for years.

Anyway we got to the cpr stage. The instructor was great I thought was abit stern.
I started the roll play and as part of it I had to ask him to call an ambulance and say the patient isn't breathing. I said 'could you call an ambulance please' he said 'no' i said ' fuck you im off '. I had forgotten to say the patient isn't breathing.
He called me back and i said what I had forgotten.
I was now really angry and I just went into auto mode and did the cpr correctly.

Afterwards when chatting to a colleague who was an A&E nurse she said the innocent in February could be playing on your mind as to what happen what might of happen etc. That i hadn't talked about it etc.
I have pulled people out of the sea a few times before as part of a group, this time I took charge of the situation.
Perhaps that's why I struggled with the first aid course yesterday.

I dont know i feel abit down, quite abit embarrassed as to my behaviour yesterday.

Hopefully just writing down this ramble will help me !
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Don’t be embarrassed mate, to save someone from the sea is amazing, you’re a hero to me.
 
give it to gordon said:
I need to ramble, I think I had some form of panic attack yesterday, never have before.
Back in February I was 'first responder' to two people who had fallen into the harbour.
I was soon followed by another bloke and we pulled the woman up into the pontoon quick and easy. The bloke was big and we couldnt get him out, he was beginning to struggle. Luckily another bloke arrived, we then took his coat of him as that was really heavy, then all 3 of us mention to pull him out.
I then got my work colleague who had turned up to go to the harbour entrance and escort the ambulance to us. We took the casualties into the warmth took of wet clothes and put dry blankets around them.
Once the ambulance arrived I left.

I didnt receive a thank you from the two who were pulled out, still havent some 10 months later !.

Yesterday was our 3 yearly works first aid course. I could feel myself getting uneasy about, I done over 15 first aid courses i recon.
Anyway yesterday I was really struggling, feel sick, shaking. I always hate doing roll play and people touching me, even work colleagues i have known for years.

Anyway we got to the cpr stage. The instructor was great I thought was abit stern.
I started the roll play and as part of it I had to ask him to call an ambulance and say the patient isn't breathing. I said 'could you call an ambulance please' he said 'no' i said ' fuck you im off '. I had forgotten to say the patient isn't breathing.
He called me back and i said what I had forgotten.
I was now really angry and I just went into auto mode and did the cpr correctly.

Afterwards when chatting to a colleague who was an A&E nurse she said the innocent in February could be playing on your mind as to what happen what might of happen etc. That i hadn't talked about it etc.
I have pulled people out of the sea a few times before as part of a group, this time I took charge of the situation.
Perhaps that's why I struggled with the first aid course yesterday.

I dont know i feel abit down, quite abit embarrassed as to my behaviour yesterday.

Hopefully just writing down this ramble will help me !
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Mate don’t worry about it but I urge you to talk about it, I’ve had to have therapy this year for PTSD due to the past 20 years in work, it’s been hard but the more you talk about the easier it gets. For fucks sake dont dwell on things it only goes wrong, keep talking, one of the one things I’ve learned over my sessions is that you did all you could do and it was a good result and that’s what you should focus on. Not been thanked is just one of those things some people react differently others want to not remember it and going to see you brings it back. If you focus on the FACT those people are still here and you brought that about the rest will hopefully fade away.
 
give it to gordon said:
I need to ramble, I think I had some form of panic attack yesterday, never have before.
Back in February I was 'first responder' to two people who had fallen into the harbour.
I was soon followed by another bloke and we pulled the woman up into the pontoon quick and easy. The bloke was big and we couldnt get him out, he was beginning to struggle. Luckily another bloke arrived, we then took his coat of him as that was really heavy, then all 3 of us mention to pull him out.
I then got my work colleague who had turned up to go to the harbour entrance and escort the ambulance to us. We took the casualties into the warmth took of wet clothes and put dry blankets around them.
Once the ambulance arrived I left.

I didnt receive a thank you from the two who were pulled out, still havent some 10 months later !.

Yesterday was our 3 yearly works first aid course. I could feel myself getting uneasy about, I done over 15 first aid courses i recon.
Anyway yesterday I was really struggling, feel sick, shaking. I always hate doing roll play and people touching me, even work colleagues i have known for years.

Anyway we got to the cpr stage. The instructor was great I thought was abit stern.
I started the roll play and as part of it I had to ask him to call an ambulance and say the patient isn't breathing. I said 'could you call an ambulance please' he said 'no' i said ' fuck you im off '. I had forgotten to say the patient isn't breathing.
He called me back and i said what I had forgotten.
I was now really angry and I just went into auto mode and did the cpr correctly.

Afterwards when chatting to a colleague who was an A&E nurse she said the innocent in February could be playing on your mind as to what happen what might of happen etc. That i hadn't talked about it etc.
I have pulled people out of the sea a few times before as part of a group, this time I took charge of the situation.
Perhaps that's why I struggled with the first aid course yesterday.

I dont know i feel abit down, quite abit embarrassed as to my behaviour yesterday.

Hopefully just writing down this ramble will help me !
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You did an incredible thing saving their lives, never underestimate what you did for them. I agree with it playing on your mind even if you don't think it is in your thoughts day to day, i think doing the course was a bit confronting for you, if you can say sorry to the instructor then do it and move on xx
 
give it to gordon said:
I need to ramble, I think I had some form of panic attack yesterday, never have before.
Back in February I was 'first responder' to two people who had fallen into the harbour.
I was soon followed by another bloke and we pulled the woman up into the pontoon quick and easy. The bloke was big and we couldnt get him out, he was beginning to struggle. Luckily another bloke arrived, we then took his coat of him as that was really heavy, then all 3 of us mention to pull him out.
I then got my work colleague who had turned up to go to the harbour entrance and escort the ambulance to us. We took the casualties into the warmth took of wet clothes and put dry blankets around them.
Once the ambulance arrived I left.

I didnt receive a thank you from the two who were pulled out, still havent some 10 months later !.

Yesterday was our 3 yearly works first aid course. I could feel myself getting uneasy about, I done over 15 first aid courses i recon.
Anyway yesterday I was really struggling, feel sick, shaking. I always hate doing roll play and people touching me, even work colleagues i have known for years.

Anyway we got to the cpr stage. The instructor was great I thought was abit stern.
I started the roll play and as part of it I had to ask him to call an ambulance and say the patient isn't breathing. I said 'could you call an ambulance please' he said 'no' i said ' fuck you im off '. I had forgotten to say the patient isn't breathing.
He called me back and i said what I had forgotten.
I was now really angry and I just went into auto mode and did the cpr correctly.

Afterwards when chatting to a colleague who was an A&E nurse she said the innocent in February could be playing on your mind as to what happen what might of happen etc. That i hadn't talked about it etc.
I have pulled people out of the sea a few times before as part of a group, this time I took charge of the situation.
Perhaps that's why I struggled with the first aid course yesterday.

I dont know i feel abit down, quite abit embarrassed as to my behaviour yesterday.

Hopefully just writing down this ramble will help me !
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Don’t be hard on yourself. Thanks to your actions that day two people are still here today that’s thanks to you .
 
My friend of 50 years passed today. We went stag do in belamenda. Everyone else younger than me n him so we said we'd look out for each other. After drinking all day then shots at night I was taking him back to apartment. I found a wallet (no id in it). Asked everyone around, no one claimed it. I said I'd keep it and ask again in morning in bar we'd based ourselves. He fell, split his forehead, so from then on known as Gorbachev. Threw up out window of taxi. Next morning back to bar about 10 for breakfast and cure. No one claimed wallet and we all agreed we'd spend it on drink (think about 80 euros). Got feed of drink literally down to last few euros Ricky comes in hanging asking anyone find a wallet. He said he sometimes carries one with no ID etc just cash. So we'd spent his money . RIP Ricky my oul mate
 
kaz7 said:
Hello all

I have just been back to max fax and they cant fix my numb lip where the original infection was that started this whole mess, they are sending me to nuero next because of the changes in my brain mri, sigh

11 months on and i have seen practically everyone in 3 different hospital plus my gp as i have kidney and brain problems from the arrest and whole body shock, it is ongoing, i didnt believe them when they said for me it would be a 12 month maybe never recovery as when you get past the first 6 months progress slows and things start to become chronic and the fibro in relapse does not help either, the ptsd is much easier which is the best news for me, i am very relieved about that

I am dealing with big damp in the kitchen and trying to save the main carpet so it is keeping my mind occupied, knackering though but i am determined to win lol

Merlin is good, 6 yrs old now so not as fucking crazy, , i have watched all the videos of him sprinting from kitchen and straight up onto the tv and then the curtain rail without stoping and the sitting on the bedroom door, and playing fetch , i had no memory of that which is sad but luckily i have lots recordings, he is fatter and cuddlier, he cant jump up so my tv has survived lol, he only discovered that cuddling and being picked up is lovely when he was left for alone for a week and a bit, he was so happy when i got home, he forgot he didn't like that level of affection but i am very pleased that continues except for the not eating unless i rub the bottom of his back thing, cats eh

Alas i have not returned to city despite my best efforts, i watched a whole game for the first time the other week , i did out of the blue cheer the goals but at the same time couldn't care less about it, it is so fucking weird, i haven't left here and gone somewhere else, i just have nothing to say about football, i will keep trying to reconnect but i accept that my obsessive self has left the building and i don't care enough to call people cunts even lol ,Ric and the mods can sleep easy

Highlight of the year is i have discovered spell checker and the word prompter thing on my phone ! about time. It has taken me nearly an hour to write this even with those things

Please everyone have a nice dec 25th and tell everyone you love them as you never know what the next day will bring , love you blues

Much love xxx
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Sending you much love back Kaz. Xx
 
Rang NHS 111 last night no answer 40 minutes.
But I'm not sure what they can do and what's the point of even going to A&E with intense suicidal feelings. They're not going to admit me or treat me until I start harming myself or start sinking into psychosis. That's what it looks like to me.
I've told my brother that I'll "need to delete myself if things don't change soon"
He didn't say anything in response. Maybe that's down to shock but he knows I'm in a terrible situation.
I'm going out to a gig tonight so I'll probably feel a little better for a while. A short while.
 
PinkFinal said:
Rang NHS 111 last night no answer 40 minutes.
But I'm not sure what they can do and what's the point of even going to A&E with intense suicidal feelings. They're not going to admit me or treat me until I start harming myself or start sinking into psychosis. That's what it looks like to me.
I've told my brother that I'll "need to delete myself if things don't change soon"
He didn't say anything in response. Maybe that's down to shock but he knows I'm in a terrible situation.
I'm going out to a gig tonight so I'll probably feel a little better for a while. A short while.
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Don't Tameside hospital have a mental health liason team available 24/7 via A&E ?
Go and give it a go.
Best wishes mate.
 
blue44 said:
Don't Tameside hospital have a mental health liason team available 24/7 via A&E ?
Go and give it a go.
Best wishes mate.
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I've been given a load of contact info I'll check.
I know that one local telephone number was closed recently and you're now advised to ring NHS 111 instead which is not good enough really.
I'll probably need to go to the mental health walk in centre tomorrow, ask them a few questions and get some things off my chest.

I don't understand why I'm not under the crisis team but that's probably down to lack of resources.
 
PinkFinal said:
I've been given a load of contact info I'll check.
I know that one local telephone number was closed recently and you're now advised to ring NHS 111 instead which is not good enough really.
I'll probably need to go to the mental health walk in centre tomorrow, ask them a few questions and get some things off my chest.

I don't understand why I'm not under the crisis team but that's probably down to lack of resources.
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Do it mate, go try and get some help and advice.
I' m speaking as someone who has gone through what you're currently going through,but for me way back in 1994.
My life now is so much better, the second chance I was given way back then turned my life around but it took me years.I'm living proof that with the correct medication and support,things can improve.
Best wishes.
 
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