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I stopped a while ago. I went through my late teens drinking more than I ought, drinking on my own. And again when I was 30 something, I went through a few of month long periods of sustained binging, a bottle of spirits a day. Stopped dead maybe 10 years ago?
I tried a few beers again recently... I just wanted more, faster. Equivalent of two strong pints an hour was barely satisfying. Having had a heart attack and diagnosed with hypercholestorlism shortly after that, I think I'll have to leave it alone for good now. I know why I started again - stress. Shit in the neighbourhood, shit relationships. Other people indugling heavily.
Even if I disregard the heart attack, I'm still a bit annoyed. I know it's a lot easier to keep the habit of not drinking at all than to manage drink. I sort of feel a bit clever and safe just never even looking at the stuff, if that makes sense. Superior to myself - better of than others, or something.... free, in a way. It's not pretty, but it's just how it works for me.
I mean, it's easy to use the price to reinforce that, although I noticed the other day, the stuff in the supermarket hadn't gone up as much as I might have thought. They really need to be banning multibuys and stuff, and all the fancy lighting. It's also RIGHT AT THE FRONT of my local supermarket, and I don't think that's appropriate at all. Remember seeing the Smirnoff advert a few years ago, and thinking, how on earth did we end up with that sort of marketing being OK? Tories have caned this country's poor and young for a decade, in the pocket of big brewers and gambling firms. The effects of normalising getting obliterated on A&E and the NHS is pretty well understood, and that's just one of the ways that we've all ended up paying for it.
Good luck to anyone struggling. Really good luck. Fuck that shit. I do know what cravings are like. Most people gradually work their way down to them becoming much less noticable. Every time you say, nah, is one small step on that journey towards having made yourself a person comfortable in their habit of not even thinking about it.
I'm pretty sure the millions of people realising that the internet and stuff also leaves them feeling something pretty bloody similair are on to something. Got to do it. Got to get back online, check the sites, etc. Or I get this agitation that's so similair to how I used to feel about an evening without drink. That's how it is for me. Addictive personality.
I tried a few beers again recently... I just wanted more, faster. Equivalent of two strong pints an hour was barely satisfying. Having had a heart attack and diagnosed with hypercholestorlism shortly after that, I think I'll have to leave it alone for good now. I know why I started again - stress. Shit in the neighbourhood, shit relationships. Other people indugling heavily.
Even if I disregard the heart attack, I'm still a bit annoyed. I know it's a lot easier to keep the habit of not drinking at all than to manage drink. I sort of feel a bit clever and safe just never even looking at the stuff, if that makes sense. Superior to myself - better of than others, or something.... free, in a way. It's not pretty, but it's just how it works for me.
I mean, it's easy to use the price to reinforce that, although I noticed the other day, the stuff in the supermarket hadn't gone up as much as I might have thought. They really need to be banning multibuys and stuff, and all the fancy lighting. It's also RIGHT AT THE FRONT of my local supermarket, and I don't think that's appropriate at all. Remember seeing the Smirnoff advert a few years ago, and thinking, how on earth did we end up with that sort of marketing being OK? Tories have caned this country's poor and young for a decade, in the pocket of big brewers and gambling firms. The effects of normalising getting obliterated on A&E and the NHS is pretty well understood, and that's just one of the ways that we've all ended up paying for it.
Good luck to anyone struggling. Really good luck. Fuck that shit. I do know what cravings are like. Most people gradually work their way down to them becoming much less noticable. Every time you say, nah, is one small step on that journey towards having made yourself a person comfortable in their habit of not even thinking about it.
I'm pretty sure the millions of people realising that the internet and stuff also leaves them feeling something pretty bloody similair are on to something. Got to do it. Got to get back online, check the sites, etc. Or I get this agitation that's so similair to how I used to feel about an evening without drink. That's how it is for me. Addictive personality.