It's quite sad actually, only last few years I woke up to it.
They aren't friends, they aren't even acquaintances, just people working you and others.
I hated what the job had turned me in to, worrying nightly what others thought about you, how I could keep earning, the people you have to suck up to.
I attended CBT therapy last year and my counsellor pretty much sat open-mouthed throughout, hearing how as a teenager I once had a telephone thrown at my head in the office, always being told I was a useless ****, people mocking me when it could clearly be seen I was upset, editors ringing me at 2am to have a go at me.
Hearing sexist comments, jobs for the boys, token offerings to minority reporters to tick a box.
I thought you had to take all that to get on and get on I did, but she explained that was not normal human behaviour, I had been taken advantage of from a very young age, straight out of school, fuelling anxieties and insecurities which will take a long time to fix.