I don't know what to say really.
When Sam died, I was gutted but in that came a feeling of resolve and poetry that we as a family on Bluemoon could put everything to one side to mourn his death and make others enjoy him as much as we did. That renaming the Cellar, getting a get together going, preserving his posts, donating to his charity could somehow help his Mum and those close to him appreciate how much that he was loved. It isn't much, but I felt that as a community of posters, we might be able to perhaps surprise them with his popularity on an obscure internet forum so that they know that a tiny piece of his words and humour will live on, even if it's just in a database. I really do still feel this. Naive, I know.
I get no such feeling with Sue's death, I feel like we've just been hit by a truck then got hit by another truck whilst we were reeling. I didn't know Sue very well because I'm not a big awayer and purposely try to keep me on here separate from me at the games or me in my life. I don't really know why, it's just something that I once thought was probably a good idea and sort of stuck to that. I don't attend any of the meetings or anything and there's a few of my family here who know me and now just Ric really. Sue used to make the effort to PM me about coming to the meetings which I always appreciated, even though she knew that I'd say no, she did it every time. I know that many of you knew Sue and thought an awful lot of her. The tales of her are almost legendary. She was beloved. I can only think about you guys who knew both Sam and Sue very well, I can't imagine what you're feeling.
That's it really. There's nothing to say. I wish that I could find something.