haha just reading through the earlier posts on this thread and it seems BOB is still up to this point ignoring peoples advice against the letter.
Some serious words BOB, without taking the piss. Most people on this thread have been through the situation you currently find yourself in. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't been heartbroken from my first love, I'll even admit to pathetically shedding tears and having some dreadful thoughts. Forget about the letter, time will heal all wounds. What you have to do is try not to post about it on an internet forum, if you must confide in friends and family, don't overdo it. Just looking at this thread you don't seem to be taking any advice on board, like I say, talk to friends and family but don't overdo it, the only person you'll listen too right now is yourself, all others can offer is a temporary lift. Do some exercise, go a run, the pain takes your mind off it. Run until it hurts so much it's the only thing that fills your mind, then you'll have peace at last.
I'll steal a few lines from the sunscreen song:
"Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before"