a thread for pessimistic Blues to discuss tomorrow...
I hope this thread is taken the right way by other supporters who might no longer be able to share the mindset of an old-school Manchester City fan for who failures were etched on the brain. Typical City, Cityitis, call it what you will, i for one was brought up expecting us to fall flat on our faces whenever possible. In 25 years of supporting City i've never expected us to win a game. I've never even thought we would. Not once, if memory serves, have i experienced positive butterflies in my stomach ahead of a game, even when we've been at home, post takeover, against teams at the other end of the table. It's not in my DNA to get overconfident, or to even expect. If anything can go wrong then is surely will, and of course for many years it did.
I can't shake the thought that we'll balls up tomorrow. That we'll somehow contrive to give the game to a West Ham side with little to play for, and in turn hand the title to Liverpool on a plate. There's no real logic behind my thoughts, just sheer panic that we'll somehow concede the league at the latest, most painful (for us), funniest (for non-City fans) moment, when it's all but in the bag. The fact that our season could be deemed a failure (wrongly, in my opinion) based on one moment scares the living daylights out of me.
I'll apologise in advance to the City supporters who find this sort of Schindler-like mindset annoying and dated, but for me the self-depricating doom mongering of Blues was part of what made me fall in love with the club, and if we ever lose that altogether than it'd be a shame. I understand how it does no good, but it's hard to leave behind, and i hope people can appreciate that at the root of any obsessive cynic's killjoying is the deeply engrained fear of the team he/she loves falling short.
Very, very nervous.
