General / Mental Health Support Thread

Had two days in hospital this week with exhaustion and pneumonia, my body is so weak and my mind is on a real rollercoaster of a ride, yesterday i had a real think about the young me from 1979 and what i got up to, x rated! If i could go back and start my life from 17 yrs old i would, having left home and started nursing , freedom from my shite parents finally with loads of other in my class in the same boat, we had so much fun! , i guess everyone looks back at our young selves when we become foc's or in bad health , this year has been hell with no end in sight but i am in better spirits today

Hope you are all doing ok?

Much love xxx

And much much love back to you Kaz xxx
 
Just been to the walk in centre
I had been having a terrible day so just had to
Spoke to the people there for an hour
I hope this is the beginning of the end of my time in hell
I hope so to….you made a big effort to go out in the daytime, it’s small steps but I know they will know more about what your going through and might be able to speed things up with your treatment plan.
 
Just been to the walk in centre
I had been having a terrible day so just had to
Spoke to the people there for an hour
I hope this is the beginning of the end of my time in hell
Hope this will turn out to be something positive and some kind of referral to the help you desperately need. In the meantime, keep doing what you’re doing, no matter if you think it’s making hardly any difference, it is. A walk, getting out even if you have to drag yourself out. It’s a positive.
 
I got a very kind big brother who has sent me some money today. I have been able to pay off three credit cards and made a dent in the loan from my bank a couple of months ago, i feel mentally good today, amazing relief at getting rid of a lot of debt, my credit rating has shot back to where it was before, it has been a really expensive year, i have had taxis here there and everywhere for scans and follows up which is still ongoing. The only time i used patient transport was the five hr round trip to get to the allergy specialist, less said about that the better! Except four hrs waiting to come home but their system was down!

I am too scared to add up what this year has cost me , i had a panic about it hence the cards and now the loan lol


Also i had asked it i could change my UC payments to every two weeks as the monthly doesn't help me with paying bills, it has fucked up my timing of direct debits, they said yes! So from next month it will be how i want to try it, i didnt want to be on UC but had no choice as the one i was one was stopping . I have been very happy with the change over and being able to change how i get it . Are you watching in the pip office, dealing with you shouldn't be so fucking hard!

Anyway, a bit of late night rambling over lol, i think i will sleep better tonite

Dont sweat the small stuff

Much love xxx
 
I got a very kind big brother who has sent me some money today. I have been able to pay off three credit cards and made a dent in the loan from my bank a couple of months ago, i feel mentally good today, amazing relief at getting rid of a lot of debt, my credit rating has shot back to where it was before, it has been a really expensive year, i have had taxis here there and everywhere for scans and follows up which is still ongoing. The only time i used patient transport was the five hr round trip to get to the allergy specialist, less said about that the better! Except four hrs waiting to come home but their system was down!

I am too scared to add up what this year has cost me , i had a panic about it hence the cards and now the loan lol


Also i had asked it i could change my UC payments to every two weeks as the monthly doesn't help me with paying bills, it has fucked up my timing of direct debits, they said yes! So from next month it will be how i want to try it, i didnt want to be on UC but had no choice as the one i was one was stopping . I have been very happy with the change over and being able to change how i get it . Are you watching in the pip office, dealing with you shouldn't be so fucking hard!

Anyway, a bit of late night rambling over lol, i think i will sleep better tonite

Dont sweat the small stuff

Much love xxx
Great news Kaz x
 
Tough day yesterday. Shortened version had to have meeting re my sickness record at work. Had 2 weeks off with pneumonia in Jan and 3 days with back pain in October. That's it in almost 3 years. As day progressed it didn't seem that important or something to get too stressed over

Paled into insignificance when met my mate who was after advice. His mum has dementia. They've sold their house and his mum refusing to move (even enter the new house).

Which took back seat to my partner's mother now being treated as end of life with her Parkinson's and Dementia (she has barely eaten for about 9 weeks).

This was superceded in evening when one of my best friends messaged to say his dad had died (known my friend for 45 years and his mum n dad even longer).

My head was fried last night and couldn't sleep which didn't help in work today
 
Tough day yesterday. Shortened version had to have meeting re my sickness record at work. Had 2 weeks off with pneumonia in Jan and 3 days with back pain in October. That's it in almost 3 years. As day progressed it didn't seem that important or something to get too stressed over

Paled into insignificance when met my mate who was after advice. His mum has dementia. They've sold their house and his mum refusing to move (even enter the new house).

Which took back seat to my partner's mother now being treated as end of life with her Parkinson's and Dementia (she has barely eaten for about 9 weeks).

This was superceded in evening when one of my best friends messaged to say his dad had died (known my friend for 45 years and his mum n dad even longer).

My head was fried last night and couldn't sleep which didn't help in work today
You’ve got a lot on your mind making it hard to sleep, ob. I wonder how is your wife’s father in the hospital.
 
I know of many crossroads in my life where i defo took the wrong turn! BUT...we all do that. It's easy looking back. I try and regress right back to my childhood to work out why I'm such a dickhead today. SCHOOL. Teachers used to humiliate us when we got things wrong. In front of our classmates. That's the worst thing you can do to young minds.
Secondary school was an absolute nightmare for me...
Loved Primary school, went to Parrenthorn secondary in 75 ?
It was like a prison sentence !
Worst days of my life !
The day i left was heaven...
The teachers....CUNTS
 
Football can be a real downer for me, i love mcfc sooooo much but the build up to the games stresses me out BIG time...
Why ? Don't know ?
The highs are highs, the lows are lows...
It's pathetic ! Its just a game...
I really enjoy summer & the international breaks...no footie!
Anyone else feel the same ?
Don't get me wrong, city are a HUGE part of my life but the build up to games makes me edgy ?
Any advice ?
 
Football can be a real downer for me, i love mcfc sooooo much but the build up to the games stresses me out BIG time...
Why ? Don't know ?
The highs are highs, the lows are lows...
It's pathetic ! Its just a game...
I really enjoy summer & the international breaks...no footie!
Anyone else feel the same ?
Don't get me wrong, city are a HUGE part of my life but the build up to games makes me edgy ?
Any advice ?
Yes, I love international breaks so much; however, actually supporting City that has been a good thing that keeps me on the level. It's focus.
 
I'm just burned out to exhaustion
I've got nothing left to give
I can't talk to people, I can't leave the house without worrying like fuck about everything that could go wrong from falling over to being attacked to just making a prick of myself
This world is relentless in its demands and it's just impossible
Once you've reached the bottom and seen how bad things can get it's hard to imagine ever having any happiness ever again

Madness at the Arena tomorrow night !
 

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