been building up for weeks.
i admitted i will drink in istanbul a few weeks ago,so
thats been playing on my mind
my son as gone away for a few days with my sister
and my mrs is in work today,and I'm on my last day off.
so iv been crafty and done what i wanted to do for the
previous 86 days,its sad ,so fucking sad.iv had 4 large 650ml 5% bottles
so far and will stop around 2pm,she will be home around 6.15pm
its resentment,everything.
I did it all for my wife and son.
I had to visit my elderly parents last night
and told them,when they asked,
my wife as not said one single time
she is happy,proud,shocked etc etc that I'v stopped.
not one word of encouragment.
nevermind.
up the blues