I don't know if i'm struggling or not, I've always tried not to drink on a work night, ie not in work the next day. But if I'm not working I'm drinking, I don't drink to relax, I drink to get drunk. I've always had a drink fri&sat. But for quite a while I've thought fuck it and now include Sunday nights, +Thursday as I only work half day Fri. So I'm pretty much pissed up 4 nights a week + during the week, if city play make that 5. I do every now and then abstain for weekend, more of a recovery, catch up on sleep and let myself recover. I mostly binge on vodka. My oldest daughter who is 9 has severe autism + severe learning difficulties and is incredibly hard work and stressful, which I often think is when we get her to bed I fancy a drink to relax, but as said, I don't drink to relax and end up getting pissed. My Mrs has a drink most nights but for her it is to relax, she is rarely drunk. We are both most likely suffering with stress/depression but both have quite a positive outlook on life and the future which may well have us in denial. I'm obviously drunk as I type this and as I type I'm not sure why I started this post, it isn't a cry for help or advice it's just, I don't know, putting it out there. I don't think alcohol is in control of me, (I maybe wrong) but it is certainly a crutch on which I lean.
Like I've said, I can abstain, I could easily do a month without and sometimes do, at least once a year.