I totally get it with how everyone is feeling in this thread.
After breaking up with my long-time partner in 2015, I have only been able to keep sane and happy with holidays and nights in the pub. All that has been taken away from me and I have been feeling really down ever since. The constant television commercials filmed using webcam apps, stupid made up words like “Covidiot”, every commercial using it to sell their product, pathetic childish memes, the One Show using a house in the “N” part of their logo during the first lockdown, idiots dancing in front of webcams to ‘Raise spirits’, idiots doing synchronised side-step dancing outside their place of work while a camera pans, gigs being cancelled, everything being “virtual”, pathetic phrases like “HUNKER DOWN!!!”, watching cr@p on Netflix..... it’s only so much I can take.
There is nothing I can do, it’s just being holed up working from home, watching TV and haven’t seen anyone in months for real.
I used to take everything for granted, shrugged it off when someone said to me “You don’t know how good you have it, you’ll miss it when it’s gone” and done this shrugging off many times. Now this has happened it’s just horrible and I just don’t like it and it seems like one huge tunnel to travel through until any light is seen.
I am not a fan of Birthdays, ever since my break up I just don’t like them anymore, but always celebrate the birthdays of others. As I turned 40 this year, I made an effort, but got immediately depressed and upset that there was nobody was around to celebrate it with me. If I kept it quiet to myself, I would have not got all depressed.
I had a test recently and it came back negative. I am grateful for that as it means things can be worse, but right now it’s not much of a difference between the two situations.
I miss my friends at the pub, I haven’t seen them in ages although did this year, it has been a while since, I miss the bar staff who are my friends also and I miss my team at work :(. We are all hard working and kind people. To think we were only talking about this virus as a footnote in the office, now it’s a huge deal.
I don’t blame Brazil for stopping their daily figures reporting, as that sends panic signals and worry in a whole country. Sadly the MSM got in the way and extorted pressure.
I have friends up in Swansea who the now ex and I met way back in 2011 just before that 4-0 win on our way to winning our first title of my lifetime. They were on the phone to me last night and compared their lives to living under water in a submarine peering above the sea using a telescope.
I can only know how they are feeling.
I am no “Stay at home hero”, I hate that phrase and am just someone following the rules, doing his job and missing life the way it once was.
I hope you all have the best Christmas possible and let’s hope City get back to their old selves, but most importantly, let’s hope the meme brigade shut up with their stupid cartoons, stop making people think this vaccine implants micro chips and let’s put an end to this horrible pandemic all because some idiot ate a bat and a doctor was accused of lying when he was only trying to stop all this from happening.
2020, you’ve had your fun, now f*ck off and do one.
