Bloody ell mate that sounds like me but 10 years ago! I thought no way am I getting to forty unhealthy/overweight & not be able to enjoy my kids, I hit the gym & lost 3 stone, spent every evening & weekend at some kind of sport with the kids. I’d happily live those days again & wouldn’t change a thing. My youngest daughter wanted to be a vet, she’s 19 now & just got her quals from college to go to Uni next year. Unfortunately I’m back to 17st haha :) I’ve had the epiphany & getting back on it, but gonna focus on long term health & happiness (especially the mind) if I could give me old self a bit of advice it would be to give yourself some time to focus on your own health & wellbeing, it doesn’t have to be too much, just a few hours a week