7 years ago my wife was diagnosed with breast cancer. She was only 33 at a time, we had 3 kids, the oldest one was 8, youngest only 4. It was an awful moment and stressful few years after that. Luckily, she fought it hard and brave and hopefully kicked the bastard out forever. In that period we had some big ups and downs financially. At moments, I was a step away from becoming very rich, I had 500 bitcoins at one time that could have made me 10 millions if I sold them on the top, were worth several hundreds of thousands when I had them, but I was trading pretty aggressively and lost them all. Absolutely all. We were left with her wage only at that point.
I picked myself up in a year and started building youtube account that got good pretty fast and last year I was starting to make 4-5k euros per month and when you live in the country where average wage is 500-600 eurs, you could imagine we had a very good life. There were few things we couldn't afford ourselves, lot of travels and stuff (traveling is a luxury here, it's not normal stuff like in UK).. but then suddenly in September, I just woke up, checked my email and found one from Google that said my account has been demonetized. Boom. Utter fucking shit. All kind of plans I had gone to the wind again overnight. This time I had spared some money, enough to be calm for 2-3 years probably so it was bit easier, but that thought of not being able to make all things we planned and that I have to pick myself again and search a new things to work on, was a big one.
It's a year now, I still haven't picked myself up and figured out a way to make some money. Still have some left and it's still not critical, but I've run out of ideas. I'm 41, not lot of jobs available here if it become critical and I've been working online for half of my life and barely know to do anything in real life. It's not as easy to make money online as before, so I'm getting bit nervous.
I don't have other problems in life, have a great family, wife, three beautiful kids, so it's much easier than some of you guys and money is really not everything and we're modest family, if needed to be, we don't really need too much, but there is some fear of the future first time in my life. I'm naturally pretty relaxed and "don't give a fuck" type, so it's bit strange and new to me. It was much easier when I was younger, but as I'm getting older when I'm in this kind of situations, I'm thinking more and more if time is on my side now. I am EU citizen, so I have options to move to some better places, but again, I really barely know to do any work after 20 years of being disconnected from real life workplaces.