Thought i would give a quick update on one of my previous posts about my battles with addiction. As of today im 24 days clean and sober minus half a spliff, which isnt an issue as i cannot cope with where it takes my mind. 24 days might not seem a lot but its a massive milestone for me, i litterally could not go 3 days without fucking my life up. Its mostly been quite easy being honest but the warning signs are there. Having dreams most nights about doing coke, litterly devasted in my dream that i have fucked it again. Ive also seriously thought about getting a bag twice one being tonight luckily for me bank card was hidden from me by wife before she went to bed, that will probably hit home where this shit takes you that she even has to do that, she knows its payday. Im very lucky. Maybe i need to start going to a few anonymous meetings, something which ive not been doing this time but i think the extra help might help. Generally i just feel like somethings changed in me i want an actually life, a nice life for my family. Im 31 soon and ive literally fucked my whole life up in that time. I did gamble last week something else i have a serious issue with too. Hopefully that doesnt happen this week. I know so much about recovery from rehab and meetings and the most important thing is being honest and telling someone how you feel because it takes it away from you. I know this post will help me get through tomorrow staying sober. Good luck for 2020 everyone