Depressed. Anxious. Stressed. Furloughed. Lockdown. When it rains it pours, hey?
Sorry to hear that,it is closer to everyone now,all you can do is stick to the rules and nag your friends and family to do the same,also remember most people get mild to moderate illness and many with no symptoms at allIt’s beginning to get to me. We’ve lost a good friend today. The mum of one of my old players.
I’m starting to get scared.
That’s hard reading, but you know it’s for the best.at the moment I just want to hug my son. He is in York. We aren't and can't travel to him. I worry that if I get the virus it will be curtains to me. I just want to hug him and tell him that like his sister he is everything to me.
Feeling down, been like it for most of week. Compounded by knowing that planned from December, I along with Mrs JASR and 3/4 of the ‘kids’, should be settling into an apartment overlooking the sea in Dubrovnik at this moment.
In comparison to many other peoples issues, the above isn’t much of a downer.
But it’s on top of a lot of things, Mrs JASR’s complex PTSD being the biggie, and my year and half undiagnosed medical issues... just looked forward to getting away , chilling and not thinking about much for a couple of weeks.
it’s been off since April, but it’s now reached the departure date...
Not feeling a happy chappy at all.
Missed out on two big cruises, visiting 14 countries and 23 cities.It's a nuisance isn't it? I should have been in Germany in early June!!
Mental health is something that is all too often overlooked. We tend to bottle a lot of sh*t up. It's really difficult to talk about it, as there is often a huge stigma attached.Just watched ‘About a boy’
resonates on too many levels , especially when plumbing the depths.
When ok, it’s fine, and happy film to watch , but when down... it ticks too many boxes.
This is a tough read, you have a lot going on. Perhaps a Silva2 would help after all City have 2 and Bernado is turning into a character of his own.Good luck.Been struggling for ages ,losing silva has killed me,i am really highly aware that people are losing people so I didn't want to be insensitive and wail about a cat,in my world where I can literally go months without seeing anyone except delivery men and the dr,she was my person if you see what I mean,I miss constant cuddling and something else living and breathing in the house,i went completely off my head last time ,i am really trying not to do that again
Where to start with covid,in hospital again a couple of weeks ago because it has damaged my lungs and I couldn't breathe,I get breathless doing the simple things,I am scared to sleep at night as I think I will stop breathing,I sleep early mornings and half the days,some nights I don't sleep at all then like yesterday 15hrs,i do stupid things to ease the pain that I don't want to talk about
You may have noticed my lol has all but disappeared,i am trying ,i really am,on my own it has been tough,those of you of my age on your own and not healthy will know what it is like,it is awful
The second I broke my shoulder my health has gone from one bad thing to another,i fear I am never going to get back to where I was,anyway I didn't expect to lay all this out but there you have it
I was enjoying getting out with some of you and going to games,i hope that comes around again
Anyway,enough about me
I decided to seek help from a nutritional therapist who has a particular interest in autism spectrum disorders. As well as poor microbiome diversity, she believes I have a damaged vagus nerve from severe anxiety/possible trauma and methylation problems.
My mind is always blank/fuzzy, I can’t remember anything and my focus is appalling. I’m already eager for this day to end.