General / Mental Health Support Thread

Well I was out last night and also tonight.
At gigs.
Just anything to distract myself for a few hours.
(I don't know how I manage it because my depression is just vast. I struggle to get up I hate going outside in daylight and I cannot talk to people without considerable effort)
Despite the long walks, lifting weights and the high dose of medication I'm in fucking purgatory. I hope the NHS rings me this week as they have promised.
I wanted to move in with relatives for a while but they didn't seem interested. I might have to try again on that. I spend too much time alone that's for certain.
Good luck to anyone struggling with mental health issues. It's a battle alright.
 
PinkFinal said:
Well I was out last night and also tonight.
At gigs.
Just anything to distract myself for a few hours.
(I don't know how I manage it because my depression is just vast. I struggle to get up I hate going outside in daylight and I cannot talk to people without considerable effort)
Despite the long walks, lifting weights and the high dose of medication I'm in fucking purgatory. I hope the NHS rings me this week as they have promised.
I wanted to move in with relatives for a while but they didn't seem interested. I might have to try again on that. I spend too much time alone that's for certain.
Good luck to anyone struggling with mental health issues. It's a battle alright.
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Well done mate. You are doing all the right things. Definitely try the family again. I’
 
Nebuchadnezzar said:
7 months into parenting my first and highly likely only son. I can say this with conviction as he was an IVF child and took 8 years to achieve. Nobody said it was easy, and I never could have imagined how hard it would be either. My job requires a lot of travel and even though I always come home daily and never stay over, I can't help but feel I'm failing him and the mrs. We have no local family so she's left with him all day and even though he's a lovely kid, he's hard work. I get home fucked or constantly feeling rushed from all the travel and I just don't feel like I'm getting it right for them.
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A lot of similarities with me. Just the one kid, punishing job. In the end I burned out and the reason for that was totally internalised pressure. Look for the things you enjoy and try and make space for them best you can.
 
PinkFinal said:
Well I was out last night and also tonight.
At gigs.
Just anything to distract myself for a few hours.
(I don't know how I manage it because my depression is just vast. I struggle to get up I hate going outside in daylight and I cannot talk to people without considerable effort)
Despite the long walks, lifting weights and the high dose of medication I'm in fucking purgatory. I hope the NHS rings me this week as they have promised.
I wanted to move in with relatives for a while but they didn't seem interested. I might have to try again on that. I spend too much time alone that's for certain.
Good luck to anyone struggling with mental health issues. It's a battle alright.
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Stay strong mate..Keep mithering the NHS for help..it's not good spending too much time alone..try to get out in the fresh air..
 
I had one of the best days yesterday

For several months sweet and savory stuff tasted vile, i didnt have an appetite but i had lost two and half stone in hospital and lost a load of muscle so i had to force food in , it was ok to eat loads of toast and drink milk and meal replacements for sick people and Pringles , weirdly, but sweet stuff was still shite

Nite before last i was doing my online asda order and i came across strawberry angel delight ice cream , i fancied being a kid and just maybe it would taste nice so i brought two tubs in hope more than expections

I took a mouthful and it was like having a explosion in my mouth, it was so gorgeous i had both tubs, one thing i discovered is not being able to enjoy eating is not nice at all

Then i fell asleep sitting up for a couple of hours, i do it often and it is a pure sleep, the ptsd scary dreams and nite terrors are at nite but the napping is just a joy

I woke up just before the game and i dont have a mad interest in it as yet but i am tryng to at least have it on in the background, i followed the match thread easier than before and it was ok. I got upset at no gundy, kev and eddie , i cant believe we lost them at the same time but aside from that still not caring about the team, i really hope i dont get back to how i was before with city, supporting them so intensively was such a waste of energy and caused me to act in a way that i didnt like

Anyway it was a really nice day for me yesterday. I didnt think i would ever feel that life was worth living again, but good days show that there is hope and i hope that reading my story will show you that even from the depth of despair i does eventually lift and you can pull yourself out of it x

Summer has passed me by as i couldnt cope with being outside in the sun and the noise of summer and it was too much to take in new things , sensory overload was very difficult and my problem with light continues but recently i would stand holding onto the whirley gig, naked, strong sunglasses and enjoy the sun on my skin and warm breeze loving the birds singing snd merlin climbing trees and i have been looking up at the beautiful blue sky, i would really encourage that, if you have a bit of the garden where the neighbours cant oggle at you, dont go to the park and strip off lol

Sorry for the ramble, just now know every dark time will lift, you will not be in a bad way forever, i promise you

Much love xxx
 
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“The theme for World Mental Health Day 2025 is "Access to Services – Mental Health in Catastrophes and Emergencies". This theme highlights the urgent need for accessible mental health support during crises such as natural disasters, conflicts, and health emergencies, recognizing that these events significantly impact psychological well-being.

  • It emphasizes that mental health is an essential part of overall health, even in the most difficult circumstances.

  • The theme underscores the importance of integrating mental health support into emergency preparedness and response plans.

  • It recognizes that crises, both those affecting people directly and those caused by global events, can cause widespread distress and anxiety.

  • The goal is to improve knowledge and raise awareness to ensure that everyone, including those in emergency situations, can access the mental health support they need”
 
PinkFinal said:
Well I was out last night and also tonight.
At gigs.
Just anything to distract myself for a few hours.
(I don't know how I manage it because my depression is just vast. I struggle to get up I hate going outside in daylight and I cannot talk to people without considerable effort)
Despite the long walks, lifting weights and the high dose of medication I'm in fucking purgatory. I hope the NHS rings me this week as they have promised.
I wanted to move in with relatives for a while but they didn't seem interested. I might have to try again on that. I spend too much time alone that's for certain.
Good luck to anyone struggling with mental health issues. It's a battle alright.
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At least you managed to go out at night and be with other people, sometimes I think we talk to much just being out of the house keeps you occupied.
It’s easy for me to say be yourself because I know you’re struggling every single day and night and desperate to get help, look after yourself PF and I hope you get the NHS phone call this week.
Maybe write or copy some of the things you have told us so when the call comes through you can tell whoever rings how you’re feeling all your symptoms x
 
PinkFinal said:
Well I was out last night and also tonight.
At gigs.
Just anything to distract myself for a few hours.
(I don't know how I manage it because my depression is just vast. I struggle to get up I hate going outside in daylight and I cannot talk to people without considerable effort)
Despite the long walks, lifting weights and the high dose of medication I'm in fucking purgatory. I hope the NHS rings me this week as they have promised.
I wanted to move in with relatives for a while but they didn't seem interested. I might have to try again on that. I spend too much time alone that's for certain.
Good luck to anyone struggling with mental health issues. It's a battle alright.
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‘Banish the darkness from your days’
‘Garnish the garden with your grace’
Mark Burgess- Happy New Life. I know you’re a Chameleons fan, this solo song from Mark has helped me mate. Take care- City.
 
2020 i was on my bike everywhere. I caught the train up to Hebden Bridge one day, and rode back to Manchester along the canal. Loved it and felt confident in myself that in my 50s i could do that...especially after liver disease from alcoholism, sepsis two years earlier and a metal rod in my leg after falling down the stairs 10 years ago.
But then I got COVID Dec 21. I can't even get my leg over my bike now (and the missus). Life change too quickly. I can still do little bits of housework gardening here and there, but I suffer for it afterwards. I have several couch micro naps through the daytime. Every day is a struggle now. The only way i can describe it is; imagine you ran a marathon yesterday. My muscles have shrunk, too, due to lack of movement. So easily strained now.
I know I've moaned on here about it before, but I still need to vent now and then.
Scientist are making progress with it, maybe not quick enough, but they'll get there. They've now identified markers so tests should become available and then possible treatments. Maybe antivirals. Apparently, remains of the virus has remained in some people..the "spike proteins". I think this then affects the immune system, keeping it on alert. Summit like that.
 
Marklr said:
2020 i was on my bike everywhere. I caught the train up to Hebden Bridge one day, and rode back to Manchester along the canal. Loved it and felt confident in myself that in my 50s i could do that...especially after liver disease from alcoholism, sepsis two years earlier and a metal rod in my leg after falling down the stairs 10 years ago.
But then I got COVID Dec 21. I can't even get my leg over my bike now (and the missus). Life change too quickly. I can still do little bits of housework gardening here and there, but I suffer for it afterwards. I have several couch micro naps through the daytime. Every day is a struggle now. The only way i can describe it is; imagine you ran a marathon yesterday. My muscles have shrunk, too, due to lack of movement. So easily strained now.
I know I've moaned on here about it before, but I still need to vent now and then.
Scientist are making progress with it, maybe not quick enough, but they'll get there. They've now identified markers so tests should become available and then possible treatments. Maybe antivirals. Apparently, remains of the virus has remained in some people..the "spike proteins". I think this then affects the immune system, keeping it on alert. Summit like that.
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You can moan as much as you want lovely, i have followed your journey and i am sad you have not made much progress. It is shameful how little was put into long covid, most people thought great the pandemic is over with and went back to their normal life's, leaving too many people like you behind

I am getting really sick of hearing how all the people who have gone on disability benefits since covid are all pretending. How about less demonising of them and look at the reasons why they are sick and do something about it ffs
 
kaz7 said:
You can moan as much as you want lovely, i have followed your journey and i am sad you have not made much progress. It is shameful how little was put into long covid, most people thought great the pandemic is over with and went back to their normal life's, leaving too many people like you behind

I am getting really sick of hearing how all the people who have gone on disability benefits since covid are all pretending. How about less demonising of them and look at the reasons why they are sick and do something about it ffs
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Thanks, Kaz. I hope the social are strict when it comes to people claiming for LC. I went to all the clinics and hosp appointments, cognitive therapy, the lot, way before i even thought about claiming for it. People faking it might fuck it up for me.
Science will soon prove the reality, and any doctors that claimed it's not real should be fucked off.
 
Had a hard week.
My depression has what feels like an outgrowth of complete fear. Not anxiety, but fear as in terror. Terror of my grim situation, terror of losing my sanity, terror of losing control. The only thing that helps this is long walks at night but it's back the next morning.
I've had serious depression before but nothing like this. Absolute torture.
I'm going out tonight so hopefully I can feel a bit more relaxed for a while. The NHS told me I'd be waiting a maximum of one month and it's three weeks at least since they told me that I think.
I really don't know how I get out of this. I'm seriously considering my options as regards suicide because I'm in an agonising situation. I'm probably going to ask about electro convulsive therapy because the high dose of medication isn't working. Alongside lifting weights and walking. Winter's hard to get through and it seems to last forever. I can't even go on holiday to somewhere hot despite finally having enough cash to have one because I'm just unfit to travel anywhere but local.
 
PinkFinal said:
Had a hard week.
My depression has what feels like an outgrowth of complete fear. Not anxiety, but fear as in terror. Terror of my grim situation, terror of losing my sanity, terror of losing control. The only thing that helps this is long walks at night but it's back the next morning.
I've had serious depression before but nothing like this. Absolute torture.
I'm going out tonight so hopefully I can feel a bit more relaxed for a while. The NHS told me I'd be waiting a maximum of one month and it's three weeks at least since they told me that I think.
I really don't know how I get out of this. I'm seriously considering my options as regards suicide because I'm in an agonising situation. I'm probably going to ask about electro convulsive therapy because the high dose of medication isn't working. Alongside lifting weights and walking. Winter's hard to get through and it seems to last forever. I can't even go on holiday to somewhere hot despite finally having enough cash to have one because I'm just unfit to travel anywhere but local.
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Keep on to them. I've had similar terror in the past...your own mind is your worst enemy. It's an illusion....everything seems worse than it actually is.
 
PinkFinal said:
Had a hard week.
My depression has what feels like an outgrowth of complete fear. Not anxiety, but fear as in terror. Terror of my grim situation, terror of losing my sanity, terror of losing control. The only thing that helps this is long walks at night but it's back the next morning.
I've had serious depression before but nothing like this. Absolute torture.
I'm going out tonight so hopefully I can feel a bit more relaxed for a while. The NHS told me I'd be waiting a maximum of one month and it's three weeks at least since they told me that I think.
I really don't know how I get out of this. I'm seriously considering my options as regards suicide because I'm in an agonising situation. I'm probably going to ask about electro convulsive therapy because the high dose of medication isn't working. Alongside lifting weights and walking. Winter's hard to get through and it seems to last forever. I can't even go on holiday to somewhere hot despite finally having enough cash to have one because I'm just unfit to travel anywhere but local.
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I don’t know to much about it and I know you are seriously considering going ahead with it PF
My mum had ect after a nervous breakdown many years ago when it was a standard treatment she spent six weeks in Withington hospital. We were only small, a tragedy losing two children affected her whole life with depression.

Tragedy sometimes triggers permanent depression I met a lady who swears by ECT and for a time would be fine but had to go back for repeat ECT. every six months, see what the experts say when she rings next week ask about the side effects if there is any so you have all the answers, hang in there PF we care for you and hope they ring next week. :)
 
Marklr said:
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Here's me on Google Street View in Salford a few months before I got COVID.
Here's me now in a white place.
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Marklr said:
2020 i was on my bike everywhere. I caught the train up to He den Bridge one day, and rode back to Manchester along the canal. Loved it and felt confident in myself that in my 50s i could do that...especially after liver disease from alcoholism, sepsis two years earlier and a metal rod in my leg after falling down the stairs 10 years ago.
But then I got COVID Dec 21. I can't even get my leg over my bike now (and the missus). Life change too quickly. I can still do little bits of housework gardening here and there, but I suffer for it afterwards. I have several couch micro naps through the daytime. Every day is a struggle now. The only way i can describe it is; imagine you ran a marathon yesterday. My muscles have shrunk, too, due to lack of movement. So easily strained now.
I know I've moaned on here about it before, but I still need to vent now and then.
Scientist are making progress with it, maybe not quick enough, but they'll get there. They've now identified markers so tests should become available and then possible treatments. Maybe antivirals. Apparently, remains of the virus has remained in some people..the "spike proteins". I think this then affects the immune system, keeping it on alert. Summit like that.
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Aww! Mark that’s hard on you,:( you had a tough time did you get any treatment yet, Covid was hard on a lot of people the isolation alone and not able to get doctors appointments.
 
PinkFinal said:
Had a hard week.
My depression has what feels like an outgrowth of complete fear. Not anxiety, but fear as in terror. Terror of my grim situation, terror of losing my sanity, terror of losing control. The only thing that helps this is long walks at night but it's back the next morning.
I've had serious depression before but nothing like this. Absolute torture.
I'm going out tonight so hopefully I can feel a bit more relaxed for a while. The NHS told me I'd be waiting a maximum of one month and it's three weeks at least since they told me that I think.
I really don't know how I get out of this. I'm seriously considering my options as regards suicide because I'm in an agonising situation. I'm probably going to ask about electro convulsive therapy because the high dose of medication isn't working. Alongside lifting weights and walking. Winter's hard to get through and it seems to last forever. I can't even go on holiday to somewhere hot despite finally having enough cash to have one because I'm just unfit to travel anywhere but local.
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Sorry to hear you're struggling, try to keep in mind you are strong enough to get over this. Remember you have a 100% success record, dispite all your battles you have come through and kicked depressions arse every day. You are doing great, you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Keep going for walks, get fresh air and please keep posting.
 
Kirkstall Blue said:
Aww! Mark that’s hard on you,:( you had a tough time did you get any treatment yet, Covid was hard on a lot of people the isolation alone and not able to get doctors appointments.
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I was going to a clinic, but they could only advise on taking it easy, really. I've tried a few different suggestions like antihistamines, but nothing works yet.
I've read a lot of positive news on it recently, though, so hopefully they'll find some treatment.
 
Marklr said:
I was going to a clinic, but they could only advise on taking it easy, really. I've tried a few different suggestions like antihistamines, but nothing works yet.
I've read a lot of positive news on it recently, though, so hopefully they'll find some treatment.
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It might be worth going back to your GP see if they can offer something else, I think they have anti viral drugs all ready. It usually takes a consultant to find which part of your body isn’t functioning and causing such a dramatic change in your fifties.

It’s not moaning if you post how you feel you want to get well again. :) show the GP those pictures. And keep up the good work in the garden.
 
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