General / Mental Health Support Thread

Just seen GP
Told me I've tried all the medication so they suspect there's an underlying other issue like Autism
Which I've been waiting for a test for since 2017
So it's dragging on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on

And 'we can't recommend electro convulsive therapy if it's autism'

So I suppose I'll have to go private (several grand) and get the test ASAP.

I'm pretty terrified to be honest
The thought of living with depression this severe
I just do not know what I should do
I've again told my brother today that I feel I'd be better off killing myself. I feel I have an existence that's not worth living on any level. It feels like I got handed this life and I'm being forced to participate even though its utter hell. As if it's a fate worse than death. Which it certainly feels that it is.

On top of this I feel the world is becoming an utter hellscape and that we're going to end up with fascism.

The only way I feel I can handle this severe depression is by joining a 24 hour gym and going there late at night every night and working out for several hours
But what the hell for ??

I envy the dead I really do
 
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Just seen GP
Told me I've tried all the medication so they suspect there's an underlying other issue like Autism
Which I've been waiting for a test for since 2017
So it's dragging on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on

And 'we can't recommend electro convulsive therapy if it's autism'

So I suppose I'll have to go private (several grand) and get the test ASAP.

I'm pretty terrified to be honest
The thought of living with depression this severe
I just do not know what I should do
I've again told my brother today that I feel I'd be better off killing myself. I feel I have an existence that's not worth living on any level. It feels like I got handed this life and I'm being forced to participate even though its utter hell. As if it's a fate worse than death. Which it certainly feels that it is.

On top of this I feel the world is becoming an utter hellscape and that we're going to end up with fascism.

The only way I feel I can handle this severe depression is by joining a 24 hour gym and going there late at night every night and working out for several hours
But what the hell for ??

I envy the dead I really do
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That was an empathy like.

Sorry to learn about the shit that you are going through.

The chronic health conditions I deal with sometimes propel me into a similar mental space, albeit usually temporarily.

I can also relate to your point about the current global and domestic political landscape. While I don’t think we’ll end up with full-on fascism, a far-right future government seems a definite prospect.
 
I hope you can all find some answers and some peace. I really cant believe i have struggled for a whole year, it feels like it has been a few weeks only, strange what the brain can do , it has protected me by erasing my memories of each stage of recovery and the first six months when i suffered a lot in many ways, the critical care shrink has been a godsend, she told me everything i was experiencing and feeling was completely normal given what happened and not try to force it just go with it and it was just a time thing, what i am left with now is permanent unfortunately but hey ho , cheers Benny

Cheers also to a week on iv tramadol! Lush and god bless the NHS

Much love xxx
 
Doing a January challenge for Mind 31 minutes activity every day for 31 days. Struggling a bit at moment lifestyle all over the place, lost good friend of 50 years 2 weeks ago. Mother in law not eaten for about 13 weeks (roughly). Was sedated to just drift away 10 days ago and no fluids since then. On constant morphine. Sat with her for almost 10 hours yesterday and thought she was gone quite a few times, even staff in her care home can't believe still going but she's still hanging in there.
 
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Doing a January challenge for Mind 31 minutes activity every day for 31 days. Struggling a bit at moment lifestyle all over the place, lost good friend of 50 years 2 weeks ago. Mother in law not eaten for about 13 weeks (roughly). Was sedated to just drift away 10 days ago and no fluids since then. On constant morphine. Sat with her for almost 10 hours yesterday and thought she was gone quite a few times, even staff in her care home can't believe still going but she's still hanging in there.
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Ditto the mother in law suffering with Vascular dementia. Still taking on fluids but negligible by mouth. On opiates and dropped off ridiculous amounts of weight. Realistically she shouldn't have made Christmas but is "sadly" holding on. Dementia is a dreadful and protracted way for anyone to take leave of this world and ever so sorry for your loss.
 
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Ditto the mother in law suffering with Vascular dementia. Still taking on fluids but negligible by mouth. On opiates and dropped off ridiculous amounts of weight. Realistically she shouldn't have made Christmas but is "sadly" holding on. Dementia is a dreadful and protracted way for anyone to take leave of this world and ever so sorry for your loss.
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Thanks so much, I'm hoping yours is too long a wait
 
I came through Christmas/New Year better than I expected.

Just to make up for it, I have some kind of physical lurgey hanging over me, and feel like shit. But at least it isn't the mental side. I'm either fucking freezing or boiling hot, there seems to be no happy medium.
 
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