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Fuckinghell, tough morning, just need to share, so please bear with...

Day off and for some reason I dropped into despair longing for an old and very treasured relationship I thought I was getting over.
Still have moments of missing her (9 months ago now) which generally pass quickly these days, but today it was very heavy.

Took some time to just feel and acknowledge it, and then went to the South Bank to do some initial work on a new business direction (inspirstion for which was partly revived during my time with her).

Think it was a subconscious signal to keep building the dream and seems to have given me some hope. But Jesus, quite a heavy nudge. Felt like it almost completely 'switched me off' (from which I would have begun to drift aimlessly again).
 
Plays By Sense Of Smell said:
Fuckinghell, tough morning, just need to share, so please bear with...

Day off and for some reason I dropped into despair longing for an old and very treasured relationship I thought I was getting over.
Still have moments of missing her (9 months ago now) which generally pass quickly these days, but today it was very heavy.

Took some time to just feel and acknowledge it, and then went to the South Bank to do some initial work on a new business direction (inspirstion for which was partly revived during my time with her).

Think it was a subconscious signal to keep building the dream and seems to have given me some hope. But Jesus, quite a heavy nudge. Felt like it almost completely 'switched me off' (from which I would have begun to drift aimlessly again).
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In one post you've demonstrated you're far more of a nice human than I am, good luck with your rehabilitation mate.
 
mexico1970 said:
In one post you've demonstrated you're far more of a nice human than I am, good luck with your rehabilitation mate.
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Thanks Mexico.

I'm sure I can be as much of a c*nt as the next person if I get shit coming my way.
It wasn't a nasty split though, just a sad decision that was necessary to sort a load of stuff out.
I learned a lot and just having known her has changed me for the better.
The connection was deeper than I'd ever experienced, so is still popping up from time to time - I'm still obviously grieving the relationship in some way.
 
BrianW said:
My wife passed on 1 April. We had been together for over 35 years,almost half my life.

I am really struggling, but I think it will get worse as atm I have so much to occupy me. I hope I don't end up in hospital, but I fear I might.
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Hello Brian,
I'm sorry to read your sad news. Would have sent you a DM but looks like that option's not there. I think you and I have exchanged views on history, politics, common sense and other matters now & then and you've always come across well. I hope you find stuff to fill a little of the void that's appeared for you.

Not long before I saw your post I was listening to the Beatles song "In My Life" and that tender line "But of all these friends and lovers there is no one compares to you ..." and although listening to it will likely add to your sorrow it might also in a strange way be some small comfort, because she obviously was the one you loved more.
 
Been 12 weeks tomorrow since i went into hospital, such slow recovery, over did it yesterday so staying in bed today, mentally this is a big challenge and i am back on antibiotics yet again, as my mouth, where the infection started, has gone red and a bit swollen again, having to jump on any signs of infection in the same place

The mind fuck continues, sigh
 
I have spent several years suffering from bouts of anaemia which invariably end up with me in hospital getting blood and iron transfusions. Medics have been convinced i am losing blood resulting in 6 colonoscopies, 3 endoscopy's and 3 capsule endoscopy's which have found nothing. Been run down and breathless this last week and more bloods were taken for analysis today. Thing is I have soldiered on but this last week it has made me a moaning old twat and awkward to live with which i know and I am realising I am spending increasingly longer times just lay in bed with the curtains shut peering through the crack in the curtains. I know thats my mental health deteriorating, I never thought that was me but clearly its easy to think "that'll never happen to me" as I always have to sitting on the side of the bed in PJ's at 2 in the afternoon feeling bloody miserable and that descent is scaring me
 
bluethrunthru said:
I have spent several years suffering from bouts of anaemia which invariably end up with me in hospital getting blood and iron transfusions. Medics have been convinced i am losing blood resulting in 6 colonoscopies, 3 endoscopy's and 3 capsule endoscopy's which have found nothing. Been run down and breathless this last week and more bloods were taken for analysis today. Thing is I have soldiered on but this last week it has made me a moaning old twat and awkward to live with which i know and I am realising I am spending increasingly longer times just lay in bed with the curtains shut peering through the crack in the curtains. I know thats my mental health deteriorating, I never thought that was me but clearly its easy to think "that'll never happen to me" as I always have to sitting on the side of the bed in PJ's at 2 in the afternoon feeling bloody miserable and that descent is scaring me
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Hopefully find the cause re blood loss and on the up soon mate
 
Been tough week in my son's small village called Mosside in Co Antrim. His neighbour (young girl in 30s) in accident last week and been on life support. Her father visited her Tuesday last week, took heart attack and died outside her hospital room. Her life support was turned off on Monday and funeral was yesterday. I used to go to Coleraine games with her partner Steven and she leaves 2 young children. So so sad
 
ob said:
Been tough week in my son's small village called Mosside in Co Antrim. His neighbour (young girl in 30s) in accident last week and been on life support. Her father visited her Tuesday last week, took heart attack and died outside her hospital room. Her life support was turned off on Monday and funeral was yesterday. I used to go to Coleraine games with her partner Steven and she leaves 2 young children. So so sad
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You don't say if her mother is still with us, but that's an awful loss for the family, and community.
 
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bluethrunthru said:
I have spent several years suffering from bouts of anaemia which invariably end up with me in hospital getting blood and iron transfusions. Medics have been convinced i am losing blood resulting in 6 colonoscopies, 3 endoscopy's and 3 capsule endoscopy's which have found nothing. Been run down and breathless this last week and more bloods were taken for analysis today. Thing is I have soldiered on but this last week it has made me a moaning old twat and awkward to live with which i know and I am realising I am spending increasingly longer times just lay in bed with the curtains shut peering through the crack in the curtains. I know thats my mental health deteriorating, I never thought that was me but clearly its easy to think "that'll never happen to me" as I always have to sitting on the side of the bed in PJ's at 2 in the afternoon feeling bloody miserable and that descent is scaring me
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Sorry you are having such a hard time, a slid is ok for a while but you need to put the brakes on soon lovely, ask about short term medication is my advice and ask family for help. You can do it xx
 
kaz7 said:
Sorry you are having such a hard time, a slid is ok for a while but you need to put the brakes on soon lovely, ask about short term medication is my advice and ask family for help. You can do it xx
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Back at James Cook hospital in the morning for more bloods and iron - really need them to find and treat the source not the bloody symptoms
 
Bad dentist experience today. The extraction wasn't a success, so now I have to go to the dental hospital to have the reminder of the tooth removed. The dentist pulled, and he pulled, and he pulled, twisting this way and that way until it felt like my skull would come out, leaving that one tooth standing there.
He advised me not to smoke for FIVE DAYS! Yeah, right... I'm already on my second joint. For the pain, or course;)
 
kaz7 said:
Whoah , i am on your're side. Hope you get some answers soon
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Oh yeah Kaz... I started a three-month course of antihistamines for the Long COVID...apparently they're effective in relieving the symptoms. Day three now and I actually do feel a LOT better so far (apart from a shit visit to the dentist today).
Still early days yet, though.
 
I'm finally seeing a psychiatrist on Monday and I've found out that there is a mental health support group nearby.
I'm suffering quite bad. They've raised my Mirtazapine dose but I'm still struggling to leave the house. The way the world is going is causing me a great deal of anxiety. I need to keep off social media, it is now a cesspit of murderous hatred lies and vindictiveness. If you're in my situation, stuff you're not even connected to can wind you up.
 
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